iloveyou

one hundred and one days

2009-05-22T10:24:00.008+08:00

the pic is nice isn't it? hehe.
pic from minho.jp

exams have just ended yesterday.
yay!
3 cheers and 3 cheers for it!
hahas.
ended with a boring paper which was listening compre for mother tongue
although i am not confident in scoring a good score for any paper..
however...
back to posting!
^^

after receiving a sms yesterday night,
i had a reflection this morning.
all these while,
i have been looking for my old self back
i have been looking back,
missing all the opportunities, chances, that were infront of me.
even if i do find my old self back,
i realised that things aren't going to be the way they were.
so it would be almost impossible to be my old self again.
just like some ppl say,
as we grow up there will be more troubles;
circumstances / things would get more complicated, messy, ain't as simple as you think they were.
as we react to these things,
we behave, we think differently
and as time passes by,
it becomes a habit,
a part of me.
that's how i started to change,
ppl start to change.
change isn't a bad thing.
it just proves that you are growing.
even if we get uncomfortable with wat's happening, how we reacted,
it does not really matter.
just be who u are, who u wanna be,
and settle down with your emotions.

when u face the sun,
you will feel the warmth that it provides for u.
realises that it has always been there providing sunlight for you.
sometimes the weather may be too warm,
it won't last for too long.
but when u have you back facing the sun,
you will only see shadows.

that's why,
just be forward looking
it may be tough,
but someday,
it's a thing that everyone has to go through
when they start thinking of the past
what did they go through.
what did they learn though it.
it's true that things often don't go the way we wanted
do we have a choice?
we will just have to go through the motion, go with the flow.
so that we will learn and get stronger.

P.S this is strictly my own point of view. do not take it to heart seriously.
;D

sometimes life make us make cruel decisions that we will regret for life

MYE is here!

2009-05-08T20:06:00.012+08:00

korean boy group, SS501.
Kim Hyun joong is in the middle ^^

decided to post after a longgg longgg break.
hahas.
although today is the first day of my MYE,
it was also the world Red Cross day.
i had to report to school at 6 40am.
andd yesterday, i slept at 12+
woke up at 5.
prepared my uniform and taking my own sweet time to change, getting ready.
surprisingly,
my dad has to go for work early today
so i got a free ride from him
;DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
on the way to school,
managed to buy redbean pancake for breakfast
and i was happily munching it in the car;
without sharing with my dad.
how selfish can i be?
xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
not long after reaching school had to change into uniform for assembly
dots.
almost lost my balance when i was in the squad
=.=
after the assembly,
hurriedly change back into school uniform and chiong to class for exam.
as usual,
first paper is the english paper.
it was moderate , i was able to cope.
but not sure if i will score.
sighs
><

will be MIA-ING from now.
as it is the exam period.

all the best to all!
the race has begun.
GAMBATEH!

沒有你的夜特別的漆黑

只能閉上雙眼去感覺

沒有我的夜

誰在你身邊

代替了那個從前

{ 再一次擁有; 龔詩嘉 }

after all that's happening,
i promise when it's over,
i will get myself back

seventy seven days

2009-04-28T19:36:00.019+08:00

dun u agree that this picture is taken so beautifully?
image from minho.jp

what a relief.
speechday is finally over.
and this coming thu is a test day~
having 3 tests on that day
physics, amaths and SS tests
tmr having chem.
MYE are jus round the corner.
feel that i won't be able to perform as well,
as many things are currently in my mind and i can't seem to concentrate fully on one item now.

i'm so "attached" to this song,
Heavenly days by Aragaki Yui
it is sang in jap,
the eng translation are meaningful to me currently.
it suits me now emotionally.
sighs.

I turn off the time to wake up before the alarm clock ressounds
I don't know why but I can already remember you

I wonder if, before I know it, I'll forget
even the miracle of being able to meet you for one hundred minutes
Will I end up forgetting even that I've forgotten?

Heavenly days, in the room in the pocket of my heart
I look for your vanished warmth
Even if there's no way to feel you ever again, ah
I'm locking up those days that are still a bit warm

Tired of walking, I sat down and was at a loss, if you were with me
We could have talked about something like our unbearable dream's fate

I could not say it by the ticket barrier, I wanted to say
That I feel "thank you" are maybe words
much sadder than "good bye"

Heavenly days, I wonder if I could smile properly
At the scene of our last kiss, I couldn’t even
grasp your shivering hands, not even my tears fell, ah
Now that it's too late, they overflow when I'm alone

Heavenly days, in the room in the pocket of my heart
I look for your vanished warmth
Even if there's no way to feel you ever again, ah
Even if I stretch out my hands, you're not here anymore
I'll walk on under a new light

who am i?
that u took notice of?
that u cast ur attention on?
who am i?

things aren't going really very well for me this year.
the song, through it all expresses my feelings now towards my Lord.
really grateful towards Him for seeing me through all these happenings
*[ it's a shorter version tho, i deleted all the repeated lyrics. ]

Through it all
Hillsongs

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness

And I look to You
And I wait on You

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

-& the song by Shayne Ward, You're not alone, is so nice!
;DDDDDDDDD

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith cause you believed

seventy - three days

2009-04-24T10:07:00.004+08:00

some random stuff before speechday
;DDDDDDDDDDD

i have been a fan of Joe Hisaishi a musician.
here are some music videos that are led by him or played by him.
he had a concert last year in Aug in Jap.
He conducts an orchestra ,chorus & marching band with 9 anime sound tracks these movies were directed by Hayao Miyazaki a famed animator.!
and one of the anime directed by him entitled Spirited away,
overtook Titanic to become the highest-grossing film in Japanese history.
The film received many awards,
including the second Oscar ever awarded for Best Animated Feature,
the first anime film to win an Academy Award,
and the only winner of that award to be traditionally animated or win among five nominees (in every other year there were three nominees).
The film also won the Golden Bear at the 2002 Berlin International Film Festival.
COOL RIGHTS!?

here's with the vocal

anyone watched Ponyo?

the voice so cute!
xDDDDD

honestly,
if i can be as sucessful as him in music..
it would be a "wow!" for me.
><

how are u?
how have you been?
i have been searching and waiting all these while.
now it has all turned into dust.

sixty eight days

2009-04-19T19:55:00.011+08:00

memories of Princess Hours

ARGHS!
Boys over/before Flowers DVD is already out.
although it is still not seen in the shelves of shops,
for me is special hehe.
( maybe? or isit already seen on the shelves? )
but it cost like a bomb.
trust me.
u would think twice abt owning it
its jus so !@#^&^*&*(&$#%!#@^$#%^% expensive.
( according to what a lady/guy who told me )
i also want the OSTs how?
it's gonna cost so much much much much.. (endless)
how i wish there's season 2 of the series just like the jap ver.
it would be nice, wouldn't it?
ahhs i forgot perhaps not for me
cus i would purchase the season 2 dvd too.
which means i would spend another bomb on it again.
how wonderful..
HEHE!
finally can upload Kim Hyun Joong aka ji hoo pic!
jus look at the way he smiles.
so sweeeeeeeeeeettt~!

aren't i rite? ^^

oh and perhaps Lee Min Ho in pink?

well, i have been doing and experiencing things that i am not in favour recently.
life is getting so messed up currently.

yeah. i will listen to you.
jus nid to wait for things to be finalised then the storm would be ceased

btw, i found Lee Min Ho's jap offcial web!
;DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
here's the link:
Min Ho

i am tired of everything now.
i just want to rest for a moment. however i can't.
things jus keep coming. and i can't avoid it.

sixty days

2009-04-11T22:44:00.009+08:00

today,
woke up at 7+
spent my day doing starring at my type report & SS project;
crap came out of it.
=.=
cant take it so i went "browsing" the web looking for new blogskin.
then..
out of habit i typed mysoju.com
andd..
itchy hands came..
watched hearts of 19
reminded me Jan Di
so,
re-watched Boys Before Flowers
skipped some eps as it would take me a day to complete all and i got other assignments to complete
after watching the exciting parts i became emotionally attached to it again,
reminding of the crave that i want to purchase the DVD when it's out.
;x
started to listen to all its OSTs Vol.1 and Vol.2
honestly,
i find that this korean version of Boys Before Flowers is better than Taiwanese and Japanese de
browsing for the actors pics.
then found Lee Min Ho's new endorsement for Etude house
he looks so cute.
><

Lee Min Ho aka Gu Jun Pyo & Park Shin-hye

images from dramabeans

*ARGH! i dunno why i cannot upload Kim Hyun Joong aka Ji Hoo ( NOT Ji HUA! ) pic~!

that's for all today

^^

do not lose your sight of your own wish
and if you truly mean to grant it..
then choose.
no matter how painful that choice may end up being.
TRC chapter218
memory fragments

forty six days

2009-03-28T09:37:00.017+08:00

after training yesterday,
heard one of the Princess Hours - Goong song,
reminding me of the days when i am so crazy over that drama.
hehe.
decided to post one of my fav songs in the OST
xD
entitled: parrot.
this songtrack can also be found in my playlist.
enjoy ^^

하울(Howl) - 앵무새

Like yesterday, i'm again in longing
the feeling of wanting to see you does not diminish
she keep appearing in my thoughts
the more i try not to, the more i cry
the tears that flow regardless of how many times i wipe it away,
bring memories that morph into other memories
it hurts me and makes me cry
all i did was receive and i regret that
i'm scared that she will forget me,
who gave her nothing

i love you, i do, i do love you,
i learnt a lot of things from her,
but one thing she said lingers on my mouth like a habit
and alone, i mumble those words.
i'm sorry, i truly am, i am sorry,
i'm even sorry for this late apology,
but without any sense of self worth, i wait for her.
by any chance will she return tomorrow?

although the birdcage she created for me was too small
i liked it, i was happy
those days of not knowing of this fate,
of believing in eternity
if only i could go back to those days, even in dreams
if i could return, then i would gather myself
i would take my heart and give her everything

i love you, i do, i do love you,
i learnt a lot of things from her,
but one thing she said lingers on my mouth like a habit
and alone, i mumble those words.
i'm sorry, i truly am, i am sorry,
i'm even sorry for this late apology,
but without any sense of self worth, i wait for her.
by any chance will she return tomorrow?

this heart
she won't understand even at the very end,
even if she cannot come
if, because she has changed, it can't be me
i still call for her and call again
like a parrot i call her name,
only her love, like this..

sang by Kim Jeong Hoon

sang by Howl, the original singer.

thirty six days

2009-03-18T10:00:00.010+08:00

forget it.
i am jus gonna sit back and watch
wat u want me to do,
i will jus do.
why bother changing things when u do not want to.
no matter how hard i try,
i gonna get hurt in the end
wat for.
it's useless.
why bother wasting my time thinking of wat to do,
wat to say?
pointless.

H2O - footprints in the sand

He walked with God
left behind are their footprints in the sand
the glimmering light from the sky;
shone upon the footprints of their lives.
joy and happiness,
shone from the two pairs of footprints.
however,
during desperate and troubled times,
during times of overwhelming sadness,
during times of unbearable pain,
there would only be one set of footprints.

Dear God,
during my moments of joy and happiness,
during those times you were there for me.
however,
when i needed you the most
why were you not there for me?

God told the man
"i had always been by your side.
when you were feeling helpless, in pain, anguish and tears,
i walked whilst carrying you on my back."

the man looked at God and said,
"i'm grateful for everything.
thank you."

adapted from - H2O footprints in the sand

i miss you,
i miss ur smiles,
and i still shed a tear every once in a while.
and even though it's different now,
you're still here somehow,
my heart won't let you go.
i miss you.
i miss you - miley cyrus

getting out of hand

2009-03-16T18:29:00.016+08:00

it has been 34days le..
a month gone,
and i am still not over that incident
sighs;

thinking back
looking back
just makes you wonder
how far you’ve gone
questioning every move you make
questioning every step you take
in the end what would become
your greatest misery

and you say to yourself
what was it all for
the feelings, the labour
the sweat, the tears
in the end the reward

then you get your long-awaited award
you’re beaten down in every corner
till you’re finally bleeding inside
the feeling uncontrollable
and you just can’t help but cry
thinking quietly to yourself
in the end you’d rather die

giving up
losing hope
just want to burst out and cry
cry till your heart’s content
cry till at last for once
in the end you are okay

- glen koh

give up
i shant write anything
i jus got a sentence for u
please,
open up urself
and be frank with us
it's the only way where things can improve
we are not only ur juniors
we are ur frens.
and wat do frens do?
they will be there when in times of need.
u may not want to get us involved,
but it's the bond that matters..
we may have different ranks during CCA times,
but wat abt outside CCA?
u see the difference there?
few more months left,
do u really want to continue like this?
leaving ur last impression on us
like wat we are having currently?
do u wan to change things around?
the days that u gonna spend with us together are going to end soon..
wat u wanna achieve as a leader?
to u, being a leader is just leading?

a good leader will take care of his men.
do u even understand a spec of dust frm this phrase?

broken hopes

2009-03-10T19:37:00.007+08:00

28days le.
almost a month.
yet i am still living in that shadow.
somethings are just too hard to get over i guess
the more i dun wanna think abt it
the more i will think abt it
shall jus bury it inside the deepest room of my heart,
keeping it as a memory,
all of it
the bad and the good
i still remembered the first expression that u had on ur face when u came during 2008 holidays
at first we were strangers.
but sooner than expected,
we were so bonded together,
almost got thru everything,
everything except for the event held on 14feb'09
jus 3 days before 14feb'09
and everything crashed
the last expression on ur face...
everything..
all these little minor things just became so precious to me all of a sudden.
really regretted for taking things for granted.
i should had cherished every moment that we were together.
doing punishments together,
having fun times together.
everytime,
i would look forward to ur coming.
but i din know that it ended so soon.
jus came like a big "bang" onto my emotions, my physical self, everything.
each time when i thought of u i told myself not to get so involved in my emotions.
but it happens the otherwise.
i really dislike myself for being in this manner...
nevertheless,
thanks for everything & srry for everything.
jus cant bear to see things end in this manner.

friends talked abt me,
how i behaved when i was sec1
commented that i was a cheerful one
looking and thinking back
i was indeed one.
and now,
a quieter me.
things do change,
so does humans.
kind of miss my kindergarten life
where i was given a activity book to draw on "wat i wanna be next time"
i drew a nurse
at that time i was so certain that i am gonna be a nurse when i grew up.
however during my pri life,
my aims changed to a doctor..
and i thought i could really make it
but seeing at wat subjects i am taking now
and wat kind of grades i am having,
i really got no idea wat i am gonna be and wat i wanna be.
my path was really that straight at that moment..
everything is jus in a mess
and i dun seem to be able to sort them out in time..
it jus does not seemed that i have a lot of time to spend on earth to get lost in time.
everything is jus limited,
everything has to end.
everything is jus a matter of time,
everything is jus how it ends.

things jus dun go the way we wanted
and we got to learn how to go with the flow & get thru the flow

after all these times,
i really realise that my greatest enemy is not anyone nor anything on the world.
but myself.

sometimes

2009-03-04T23:02:00.010+08:00

ANOTHER PIC OF BOYS OVER FLOWERS!!

ohman!
these days i am really insane with my emotions.
also crazy over this korean drama boys over flowers
>.<
anndd really,
to imagine myself to have that much amount of money,
living in those kind of houses..
it's jus simply...
"out of the world" thing.
lols.!
anyways,
jus watched finished boys over flowers ep17
there are a total of 24eps
cant wait to watch finish them all.
seriously,
it's after such a long time i have been so indulged into a drama,
the last drama series i was so into was Goong, princess hours
gotta get the DVD~~!
nid to save money le~
managed to locate some songs on imeem so i uploaded some OSTs from the drama onto my new playlist,
which can be found under the "jukebox" section.
enjoy~!
:DDDDD
slacking with physics test and learning chinese spelling
haha.

sighs...
21days have past.
and everything seems to stay the same as it was after u left..

i have also been in crazy with this song by Show luo in Hotshot which he previously flimed in.
entitled : 幸福不滅

Cause i believe ,
那幸福不滅的定律
在你手心會有誰誰給妳的美麗
緊張痕跡就讓我的心安靜地守著妳
把祝福送給妳

"Sometimes you cannot believe what you see,
you have to believe what you feel.
And if you are ever going to have other people trust you,
you must feel that you can trust them, too - even when you're in the dark.
Even when you're falling."

-Tuesdays With Morrie

i really really hope for now that i cant feel the hurt, pain, emptiness, helplessness, hopelessness there.
really, if anything could numb my feelings..

little pleasures of life

2009-03-03T16:36:00.012+08:00

recently have been "addicted" to a korean drama
entitled : Boys before flowers
hehe.
this drama adapted from a japanese anime.
here are some of the pics of the cast.
:DDDDD shuaii ge alrights!
better than those in the japanese version
( personal opinion )
the actress is from the korean drama which ended recently i think,
hearts of 19

not gonna post much le.
nth has much changed.
i am still disappointed how things worked out,
and myself.

Show Luo
幸福不滅

沒原因就是喜歡妳
在初次相遇又重逢的心情
深呼吸讓心動隱形
完美的愛情是無聲的旋律
聽我聽妳不確定的語氣
等我等妳放下妳的憂鬱
嘿如果你輕輕閉上眼睛
我會明白妳做的決定

Cause i believe 那幸福不滅的定律
在你手心會有誰誰給你的美麗
緊張痕跡就讓我的心安靜地守著妳
祝福不用回憶

沒原因就是喜歡你
就像海全面天空般的心情
妳靜靜看著妳背影
就足夠時間
無條件的放棄
妳如果妳愛上他的心靈
愛如果已沒有我的空隙
嘿只有妳可以用點開心
我會情願漸漸被忘記

Cause i believe 那幸福不滅的定律
在你手心會有誰誰給妳的美麗
緊張痕跡就讓我的心安靜地守著妳
把祝福送給妳

oh i believe
Cause i believe 那幸福不滅的定律
妳的手心不一定要由我握緊
就像恆星總會有發光的原因
oh i believe
妳值得被珍惜
也值得我放棄

wanted things to return to the way it used to be.
however i realised that i could not because everything has changed.

thanks for everything

2009-03-01T11:50:00.008+08:00

" Good things nvr last "
indeed i regretted for taking things for granted,
thinking that u will be with us for at least for the next half year.
but u went sooner then everyone thought.
just wanna say sorry.
many things to say.
but dunno where to start from
just got to learn how to go through it and letting it go.
kept on thinking why did things go or turn out this way;
also knew that in life things dun go our way.
i'm srry that i am still in this condition.
really,
tired of not being able to pick myself up,
tired of everything.

it's the first day of a new month.
maybe things will go better?
not really anticipating much..
i feel that now wat i am going thru is just like the anime character in H2o - footprints in the sand, Hirose, who was physically blind..
and i am almost the same as him..
- i cant see my future -
( if u dun understand, dun bother understanding )

-& no matter how long this tunnel i am walking thru now,
i am gonna keep on walking till i reach the exit of it,
i could tell myself "finally"

if only life could be as easy as changing a blogskin.
jus wanna numb my feelings.

myself

2009-02-23T17:15:00.011+08:00

12th day since that incident happened
and i just cant get over it totally yet to be frank..
not sure of wat to post.
cus nth now can express how i am feeling now..
its like things keep crashing down on me
after this question/problem came,
before u knew it there's another one waiting for u to go thru..
all i am doing is jus putting everyone in disappointment,
affecting the rest.
i know i nid to get thru them...
but how?

- i apologise to those who are concerned abt me perhaps i nid a little more time.

Heavenly days,
in the room in the pocket of my heart
I look for your vanished warmth
Even if there's no way to feel you ever again
Even if I stretch out my hands, you're not here anymore
I'll walk on under a new light

突然好想你

你会在哪里

过的快乐或委屈

突然好想你

突然锋利的回忆

突然模糊的眼睛

i am really getting tired of myself for being so lost and not putting my priorities right also not getting myself back after such a long period of time.
really... i am tired..

- happiness is such a tangible thing yet easily broken/destroyed.

how are things going back to the way they used to be?
when i turned back and look,
there's only a blank span of time

what a relief

2009-02-14T15:58:00.005+08:00

ahhh! finally it's over!
kinda disappointed that we got nth
and jus receive de C.O.A
but i promise,
WE WILL BE BACK!
we will definately do better next year.
ohwells,
it's just our first time.
so many things in the world,
there's bound to be a first time.
intially we were blur at wat we were supposed to do during the uniform inspection.
cause they said "barisan" which meant all...
so we were like..
"HUH?"
actually,
it was for the first part of the squad and not ours.
=.=
but later on,
at the parade ground,
we got really serious.
all said timing together and the time spent there was fun yet stressing as there are 4 other squads on the same parade ground.
which means,
there are 4 other commanders and many other timers.
arghhhs.!
i got to admit i couldn't hear some of the commands clearly.
which resulted in my slow reaction.
kinda "knock" into things too..
><
-& i'm just so srry!
the whole competition ended earlier as expected around 11am only.
went to the ladies to change and went for lunch
:D
sighs...
nevermind we will make a comeback next time round,
a stronger comeback.
anddd i promise to improve, try to concentrate!

this year and last yr was just a rush,
causing many things to happen.
both pleasant and unpleasant.
just wanna say something to that someone.
thanks for everything, the good and bad.
i will appreciate it.
jus go on with your life,
do things that u find happiness and contentment in.
dun nid to worry abt us
cus we will be living our lives well.
all you have to do is just to remember us;
keep us a part of ur memory.

please?
no more last minute things again?
it's really stressful.

catching up

2009-02-09T20:21:00.004+08:00

time is really really running up.
starting to doubt myself.
knowing that i cant doubt it.
it's jus days 5days, ONE training left.
that's all its gonna make the difference..
competition duration is only max 15min.
jus so speechless now.
anyways,
i totally have no mood to post at all.
so this is gonna be a short post,

a few days ago,
i watched the grave of the fireflies
and i couldn't slp the whole night..
kept reflecting on the message that the cartoon is telling..
it's a heart-wrenching cartoon..
it started off with a flashback,
with the brother dying..!~
arghhs it's simply touching

sitting alone on the chair
with the wind blowing
strongly and leaves
dancing its way to the
ground, she enjoys solitude

PLS STOP?!

2009-02-07T20:39:00.003+08:00

will time stop for me just for a little while?
i little while will do..

a wk more frm today, now
i will be having my FDC
i dun even know if i will be smiling or feeling down now.
time now to me is just such a scary thing now.
i also dunno wat's wrong with me
i havent even started the competition and here i am thinking so much..
also think so much for wat.
i kept telling myself not to think so much,
jus go for it.
but each time when i have time for my brain to "fly",
it will fly to somewhere else.
tests are coming up this coming wk..
social studies, geo..
and one more i think.
i forgot.
LOL

jus some random lyrics from Richard Marx,
Right Here Waiting For You

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

-& can i jus stop thinking..

empty promises

2009-01-31T17:49:00.009+08:00

H20 - footprints in the sand, Hirose. CUTE RIGHT! xD

they may have all been bitter memories,
but it's sad when we have to part,
isn't it?
it's been a long journey
we walked the whole way together, didn't we?
we hurt each other a lot too
we ran across obstacles here and there
fell, got burnt, warded against the cold,
i thought that i couldn't take it any more
but we still hurt each other
then we finally learnt to hold hands,
being able to hold each other up.

H2o - footprints in the sand,
by: Hayami-chan

a part of a script that was taken frm the above anime name that i jus watched finished.
the anime is so nice and touching sighs.
almost teared again.
><
alrights,
it's still the same thing..
I SERIOUSLY DUNNO WAT THE HECK U ARE THINKING!

keep improving

2009-01-30T20:59:00.002+08:00

today happened alot of embarrassing things
1) during chemistry lesson..
tio laugh for some particular reason which i am not really aware of..
* i was busying doing my corrections,
too engrossed in my work
;x
2) i went screaming&running with kailing and siti when they saw the sirs in the room when our CCA training was about to start.
frankly, i dunno wat's the reason.
why i ran and screamed with them..
"getting into the flow" i guess
=.=
3) was being told that i resembled like a green dinosaur.
someone else called me a purple dinosaur.
another called me a kid
lawls
anyways,
today's training definately improved.
but dunno why the time for games was so long..
then drills so litte.
during the drills,
the spirit was there.
but the unity was not..
dunno wat happened.
sighs and unfortunately,
i was one of them.
><
aiyeah!
i am just not myself these months.
but i am glad that things are better now.
^^

SERIOUSLY, I DUNNO WAT THE HECK U ARE THINKING.

i'm sorry

2009-01-28T21:11:00.004+08:00

todae is the 3rd day of the lunar chinese new year.
how time flies..
days passed,
and i simply cant find myself back.
these days i have been trying to be someone else then myself.
i dun even know who i am currently.
everything is jus so mixed up...!
anyways,
jus came home from CCA.
supposed to go to my aunt's place for buffet.
in the end i jus cant open my mouth to ask for early release..
so in the end,
i c.m.i, cannot make it.
after training had dinner at mac with siti.
had some crap talking as well as heart to heart talk.
;D
all i know is that i am jus so disappointed in myself
how can i allow myself to fall when everyone is present.?
ohwells,
as siti said..
i cant control my body.
just so disappointed with myself.
after i fall out,
i nvr fall in again,
"hiding" in the ladies doing some "heart pouring session".
while others are doing drills in the squat.
i mean..
someone else in the squat may be feeling the same way too.
however they did not "hide" themselves,
instead carried on doing their best.
feeling like a coward now, selfish too...
feeling so guilty to others, to everyone.
jus pray that i will find myself back ASAP

at the end of the day,
i will question myself.
" did i do my best, living my life to the fullest today? "
and the answers for these few days were..
" certainly not. "

a new year, a new beginning ahead. what's instore for us?

2009-01-26T20:19:00.003+08:00

first things first.
HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR TO ALL!
Little Miss-forget it
rights.
now i got the virus.
i am not myself again.
how wonderful.
jus feeling so hopeless now.
dun even know if i can perform on wed.
OHGOSH.
i better perform
or else i gonna let everyone down.
tried to comfort 2 girls.
however i failed.
seeing them like this..
it jus makes me unable to move on,
even till the point where i find myself "useless" in a sense.
dunno when was the day when everything was fine.
i know that life wont be as easy when everyday is a fine day..
but i jus feel so not myself.
goodness..
i really REALLY nid to find myself back ASAP!

festive season is here; but why?

2009-01-24T11:45:00.008+08:00

Little Miss-Forget it

i was named by that "phrase" after going out with kailing and siti yesterday after school for some comforting session.
=.=

jus gonna blabber some nonsense that's in my mind right now.
my mind now is seriously like CRAP

LIFE IS SERIOUSLY NOT ABT QUITTING AND GIVING UP.
if all u feel like is quitting and giving up,
which means u are giving up on the choice that u have in ur hands.
u certainly have the choice, the capability to change things around,
although it may be hard,
but there's still hope.
it is becus of the hope is still there that's y u cling onto it till todae.
if u wanna give up on the choice u have it in ur hands,
then wat's the diff between being animals and humans?
humans are placed in the highest authority is becus we have the choice to change things.
why should you give up when there's still hope?
it's not like there's only a dead end at the end of the road isn't it?
there's still a road of "success".
WHY SHOULD YOU BE GIVING UP on the road of success.?
success did not come easily.
any successful person would tell u that!
most of them come from a humble background where they have a strong determination to strive and keep on getting better,
improving their own lives.
therefore it's their strong determination that brought them this far.
but where is ur determination?
thru the holiday trainings,
have u ever asked why did u even attend every training?
it's precisely that u care abt it,
precisely u feel that u have the responsibility to change it,
percisely u saw that hope there, that we can get something meaningful back!
so why not jus continue going on?
so wat if the time is running out?
i dun care much actually,
as long as everyone works together with the effort, bond there, determination,
we can go thru it together.
so wat after so much effort and time put in, the situation is not improving?
precisely it's not improving,
why not continue to put in effort and improve it.
u cant be telling me that that's all u girls got.
there's got to be more right?
instead of thinking so negative,
why not think of the positive?
although the circumstances may be hard,
we cant give in to the circumstances.
or we are really "losers" in a sense.
( i am not here trying to say that u girls are losers.
but it's jus a word of expression. dun take it to heart.)
if we really did win something back,
i tell u,
u gonna be happier than anyone else in the world.
cus u did do ur part to win that thing back!
why taste failure when u can taste success.
5trainings may be only a few hours.
but if everyone is really there, physically, emotionally, mentally,
even 1 training left,
we can make it
becus we will be doing our best,
absorbing everything that we can.
so, jus dun give up will u?
jus dun.
only 5trainings left + the day itself.
since it's so little time left jus like you girls said,
why not jus stay and be with them.?
giving all you've got;
no harm right?
it's precisely little time left,
u girls should treasure it and making full use of it till the very last sec to improve everything that needs to improve.
we have hold onto it so long le.
now then say want to give up it's jus not like you.
seriously it's jus not like you.
i was also once bugg-ed by this problem.
but i thought abt the VIs,
the VIs are here to help us.
so why not trust them,
work together with them?
the reason why the VIs continued to come to CBSS,
is that they saw hope in us...
so jus dun give up on that hope alrights?

hold yourselves till the very end.
then at the very end,
u could at least tell yourself
" i have certainly did my best, everything i could. "

what's true, what's a lie?

2009-01-18T10:02:00.005+08:00

adorable? hehe! this reminds me of my hamham~ i MISS him!

1) a new skin for a brand new year!
how's my new skin?
nice?
honestly,
i am loving it!
xD
"I'm a bear from somewhere waiting for a special something, that special someone but that never came.
I sat on a wooden swing in the woods, listening.
Listening to things that never sound.
White snow fell, then I knew it's wintertime."

time to post!
but a short one~
:D
well life has not been getting easier as imagined,
and amazingly,
this year's cny is so early.
trainings are also improving with the VI's help
many things have happened,
many things have passed.
yesterday i secretly watched " kungfu panda " without my mum knowing.
and i liked a phrase that the tortise told the panda.
" tomorrow is a mystery , yesterday is the past and today is a gift.
that's why it's called present "
and it's kinda true.
you wouldn't know wat kind of day ,
wat things will happen tmr.
and u cant do anything abt yesterday for it has already passed.
todae, is for you to treasure, making full use to it.
- ok -
back on track.
weekend assignments has been piling up non-stop
sec3 life aint going to be a breeze.
just got to keep on walking on this road of mine till the very end,
then when i look back on my life at the very end,
it is full of memories of the colours of life.

what's the truth, what's the lie?
all will be revealled one day becus it's all written in black and white.

goodbye world

2009-01-09T20:07:00.013+08:00

is the skies that wide, that bright?

HAPPY MEAL?
is it that happy afterall?

HELLOS ALL!
long time nvr blog le hehe
school has finally reopened.
and it's not getting easy neither.
got to get use to the timetable given soon!
anyways,
upon reflecting on wat the school principal said..
"God's stall"
it's often true that God only provides seed for us.
seed that provide us to success.
it's up to us if we want to cherish, treasure that path, that oppotunity that is given to us,
and make full use of it.
some may realise it later,
thus ending up walking one big round
some realised it earlier and got the fruit much ealier.
it all boils down to own perspective of looking at one oppotunity that's given to us.
behind every trouble, every negative, there's always a ray of light, a dim one
when the suituation turns helpless, hopeless, there's always an answer right infront of you which seemed invisible.
so there's always hope in times of despair
i dunno why am i talking all these "rubbish" perhaps it's jus to remind myself..
totally...
NO IDEA
buy the ways,
i will be MIA-ING these days till i get myself back.
i am just uncertain about somethings and nid to sort them out.
no worries
everything will be fine.
hopefully i will be back soon
^^
TAKECARES!

[ when is the day coming when the skies are brighter? ]

in order to see a fine day, a rainbow, we must first know how to see the storm and get over it.

lost for words

2008-12-23T17:16:00.005+08:00

i am seriously speechless now
really speechless.
i jus nid some time to get things sorted out
and thought through.

-& leave me alone will you? PLEASE?
`! do u even know why i behaved/thought this way?

although there's barrier,
i hope that i will be able to get over it and move on,
becoming a stronger person

BREAD day

2008-12-18T17:41:00.011+08:00

I WAN TO WATCH A HOTEL FOR DOGS BADLY!
but it's showing in cinema onli NEXT YR
and it's so freaking long..
T_T

todae morning,
got woke up by siti's sms asking me wat time go watch twilight
so woke up and surf-ed the net to check
decided the time slot @ 10.30 so rushed to do all my morning "drills" and was kinda late by 9mins?
but i am still earlier than siti.
hehe
:P
had breakfast @ mac.
onli siti ate cus i had some bread before i went out of the house.
and we chatted on somethings.
got depressed again
after breakfast,
went to the cinema @ amk to buy purchase the ticket
went into the rm,
we were talking abt the sequence of the movie.
dots.
cus honestly i watched it on the net for more than 3 times
siti too..
so when the movie starts we were like.
" oh i know wat's gonna happen next "
hahs
one thing,
THE RM IS SO FREAKING COLD
i was wearing a jacket and i am still freezing
oh my...
-.-
after twilight,
siti and i went seperate ways.
i went window shopping awhile in the hub
since yvonne & weetheng has yet to arrive to meet up with the rest.
yvonne rang me up and told me that she reached the hub and buying sushi.
at that time i was in the same lvl as the shop she's at,
i was in the ladies.
hahs such coincidence.
after meeting them,
went to breadtalk to buy some bread.
then we proceeded to the cinema and waited for everyone to gather and bought the tickets.

2nd movie i watched was the day when the earth stood still
it was....
ok....
but i learn one lesson frm the movie hehes
after the movie,
went to S-11 to have some food for lunch.
feeling full,
i onli had a cup of ice lemon tea
after lunch..
went to jubilee's arcade to join the boys.
after arcade,
yvonne decided to head home.
so i followed her since she has shifted back to amk
:D
most of the girls also decided to go home
while the boys continued to go somewhere to play basketball.
so here i am at home,
resting~

-& todae i had bread for breakfast,
bread in the cinema
and a cup of ice lemon tea
wat a diet i had.
;x

well..
the lesson is indirectly learnt frm the movie
^^

lesson learnt:
wateva that u don't treasure,
it will be taken away frm u one day.
and when u realise it
it's already too late
ending,
getting hurt.

mood-less

2008-12-17T15:28:00.008+08:00

ariel lin & joe in 我的億萬麵包 aka love or bread!

this is gonna be a short post.
too tired to type anything now.
jus had mood to sit there and stare or jus lie down and slp.
YAYS!
finally found the lyrics for the ending song in 我的億萬麵包!

面包的滋味
ariel lin

回头想起一切都还像昨天
我会天天对你想起
揽著你始终才转几圈
有了转变
缘份停留不可远

虽然你满身数不完的缺点
完美小姐也不是我的头衔
越看就越顺眼
我们之间
舒服得像星期天
是命运紧紧把我们绑在一起
越吵越甜蜜越吵越爱你越不分离
生活的难题考验著爱情
会想到我们的努力多麼值得被珍惜

是命运紧紧把我们绑在一起
越吵越甜蜜越吵越爱你越不分离
面包的滋味有多香多甜
有你在身旁才显得完美

虽然你满身数不完的缺点
完美小姐也不是我的头衔
越看就越顺眼
我们之间
舒服得像星期天
是缘分不是爱情
是命运紧紧把我们绑在一起
越吵越甜蜜越吵越爱你越不分离

the song is superb sia.
i fell in love with that song le.
jus hope that the mv will be out soon hehe!
these days hav been busying around with CCAs
so tiring.
sighs but i am not the only one..
so i cant complain much tho.
everytime go training..
i see wat's infront of me.
i jus see no hope as a whole.
there's hope in individuals.
but why not as a whole?
i jus dun get it.
perhaps it's jus like wat the VIs said.
- we are not bonded
jus dunno how to live thru every sec of it.
feeling the whole atmosphere in there..
it's realli..
depressing.
i jus dun feel any confidence in them.
now all i can think or could tell them is jus
- do their best in every training, take them seriously.
yesterday when the VIs came down,
they also noticed that there is a "sloppy-ness" feeling when we were doing our drills.
isit realli we are not there,
or isit jus tired
or isit jus giving up
or isit jus doing for the sake of doing
or isit jus dun have the confidence there?
it's realli no use for a few of the cadets to have the right attitude, mood, body posture there.
it realli still depends as the whole.
and this feeling is jus like u cant give something lifted up.
no matter how much effort u put it..
it jus wont work..
i dunno wat's going on..
but this seriously cant continue or we are gonna be in dire trouble..
unless we can find out a way to motivate them..
we are jus going down the drain,
wasting our time.
and some ppl are jus not being cooperative.
I SERIOUSLY DUNNO WAT TO DO
trainings are ending soon.
left this friday's and next tue's
2 trainings left.
after that is 2months of training and that's it
competition starts le
sighs.
tmr class outing le.
finally there's one.
pray that everything will go smooth and safe tmr!
:D

sometimes dreams are better than reality

fun times

2008-12-08T11:26:00.007+08:00

FAY frm tsubasa chronicles

yesterday got to go out with my mum's church cell friend, ann, in the afternoon.
a "tour" organised by ann's sister, gloria.
had breafast after church together with my mum and ann before going to gloria's office to meet up with the rest of her company's ppl who are also going.
and there is like a total of 90 ppl (occupies 3 coaches)
when we reach gloria's office, her employees are busy packing things.
and i peeped into their plastic bags and saw they were christmas decorations.
my mama asked one of the employees wat were those decorations for and she said it was to "boost" the festive season spirit.
and guess wat's the decorations for?
to decorate where?
- in the bus itself.
LOLS.
believe me,
it's super duper messy
-.-
rights when my mama, ann and i boarded the bus,
everyone was busy decorating the bus,
even when the bus started moving,
they were still decorating.
@_@
our first destination of the day was animal farm,
which is known as animal resort
it's located in jalan kayu dots.
nth special..
as usual,
we were able to feed the animals.
i onli enjoyed when i met the geese.
dots.
they are so friendly.
and they dun "quack!" they made some rowling noise which i dunno how to express with words.
they dun bite, they dun chase.
they jus come close to u
hehes! SWEET rights!
after an hr there,
we went to taiwan titbits warehouse
wat is expected of there?
TITBITS! of course!
and i only bought one box of jelly..
><
spent another hr there and headed for a early dinner at...
sembawang park restaurant
located at sembawang park
frankly,
it's my first time going to sembawang park.
and it's jus like a beach.
got send,
BBQ pits, ppl swiming there, spending a night there, building their tents.
jus like a any usual beach.
but it's a park still lols.
the food there was ok.
after dinner,
went to night safari.
so niceeeeeeeeeeeee they had a christmas tree located at the entrance,
made of recycled plastic water bottles.
how unique!
waited for a long long time for the tickets to be bought and given out.
when the tickets were distributed,
everyone went on their own way.
ann, my mum and i sticked together and queued up for the tram.
when we settled down on our seats,
a photographer came and took a picture of us 3 together and gave us a ticket to purchase our photo if we want to.
(which we did not in the end)
when the tram started to move,
there's a "tour guide"
with us at the front to describe, tell us info and stuff.
too bad..
no photography is allowed so no pictures.
T_T
the wind is cooling and refreshing.
and the animals are like jus..
so near..
but one wonderful thing is that they wont attack u.
and i wonder how the ppl there tammed the animals to behave in such manner.
><
saw different kinds of deer, buffaloes, ant eaters, lions, tigers, elephants, hyenas
and many more..
was not really able to see well as it's dark.
there was limited light source.
X_X
after this tram ride,
wanted to watch the night show,
but it was packed/full
~.~
so in the end..
we got down and walked towards a cafe and sat down feeling all drained out.
soon, the time is up and we got to board the bus and HAMBURGERS were given out.
was munching my food away.
hehehes
^^
decided to go home after leaving the night safari.
so we requested the bus driver to let us alight at the nearest destination and we boarded a public bus and went home.
( there were actually 2 more items before the tour ended which was the mount faber, where we enjoy the beautiful night scenery & after that, on our way back, the bus will pass by orchard road and we will be able to see the lightings and decorations. but it's no fun le so we decided to end it after night safari. )
when i reached home..
i brushed teeth and slpt.
it's so tiring.
since 7am in the morning woke up till 11+.
TIRED

-& 不良笑花 series has ended~

mistakes are not mistakes till we truly know what we have done wrong and learnt from them.

boredom taking over

2008-11-28T14:30:00.010+08:00

tada! here is the pic of one of the new animes i am watching :D

Earl & fairy
the guy with golden hair is Earl , the lady is the fairy & the cat is a fairy cat

awww i cant get any nice pic of Skip beat!
but it's a nice anime.
funny too!
>.<
todae woke up
surf-ed the net to search for blogskin.
honestly i hav been waiting for a blogskinner to submit a particular skin on blogskins.
but i waited for like abt 2wks?
and she did not.
so todae i decided to go to her blog and request for it.
and surprisingly,
abt 2h lata,
she submitted the skin!
which is the skin i am using now
haha!
so happpy~
i am back to my theme of simplicity
edited everything and now it seems to be almost perfect.
;DDDDDDDDDDDD
alrights will update more later.

when u hold something on too tightly,
it would jus slip through her fingers and be gone.

totally insane

2008-11-25T21:23:00.020+08:00

ahhh~ kaname is jus so shuaii~ ( :

ok this is totally insane
after watching animes during the whole morning.
i cant get my mind off the animes i watched!
argghhhs.
i am jus wondering why am i watching animes that are showing now.
i should be watching animes that has alreadi ended then i can watch all in one go.
now i have to wait for every week, mon, tues, wed
for RAWS & SUBs.
awws.
it's DREADFUL!
i wish i could jus fly to jap and ask the creators wat's going on next.
hahas.
raelli had the thought of working with them.!
:DDDD
but as i said.
it was onli a thought.
and it always hav been a thought.
nvr came true before NOT at all.
and it NVR will.
cus i suppose before i can get the chance.
the series would hav been over.
even the anime series tsubasa chronicles,
i have been watching for 200+ chapters. (manga)
(oh pls it's anime is not even OUT yet and the manga is way faster!)
dots.
now abt movies.
i intend to watch abt 5 movies.
i said abt 5 right?
so there might be more who knows?
= =

1) bedtime stories
2) bolt
3) twilight
4) 4 christmases
5) a hotel for dogs
(previously i missed out this movie)

weeees~
now the next prob is
where is the money coming frm?
hehe.
no idea.
when the time comes i believe there would be an answer.
* for every question there would be a solution behind it right?
xDDDDDD
RIGHTS
i am kinda "high" now.
cus of accidently watched a g@y anime.
and i meant serious.
GUY kissing GUY
; xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
i always so sway de.
curious curious then watch.
eeeeeeeeeeee.
curiousity isnt realli a good thing afterall.
isn't it?

-& and i better go rest or i would go bonkers!

[ if u guys noticed, i changed my blockquote. isn't it prettier? ^^ ]

Love is something eternal . The aspect may change but not the essence

grey skies everywhere

2008-11-20T19:13:00.004+08:00

200 pounds beauty

bah~
too bored at home.
jus watched finished this movie
despite knowing that i had alreadi watched it more than 2 times last yr
i love the song in it la!
but it's not maria ave maria
hehe
it's entitled star

here's the translation.
it's so meaningful
aww...

the wind is shaking the windows,
and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky,
shining brightly too many to count,
the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

don't be hurt too much..
they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,
telling me to go to sleep

though I'm exhausted to the point where I can't walk
though my tears blur my vision
I'll still smile in front of my love that I'm not able to get

Even though our happy times were short,
I'll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars,
forever

My dream is coming.
though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright,
even blinding..
it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..
it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

Only for today,
I won't cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars,
forever

nice isn't it.
sighs~
wat shld i do next?
can anyone tell me?

*i have added the song into my playlist ^^

the treasures of life
are those littlest things that you can find.
so little that you may not even notice them;
they are miracles.

slower in time

2008-11-19T08:41:00.005+08:00

炎亞綸 ; Aaron Yan & 鬼鬼 ; GuiGui in 霹靂MIT!

i have been thinking if singapore is slow.
you know the show that is air-ed on every weekday,
chnlu , 7pm..
轉角*遇到愛
since last yr end is already released dots.
then singapore this year NOW then show.
dots.
anyways i <3 the song 轉角遇到愛 by luozhixiang
so nice.
and then there's still a 問候歌 song in the show. dots
here's the lyrics:

啊朋友們請
你聽呀聽呀聽呀
我唱歌來問候你

有什麼事情
請啊請啊請啊我
能夠來幫助你

在春天夏天
並呀並呀並呀
秋天和嚴冬

我定呀定呀定呀
令呀令呀令呀
你心呀心呀心歡暢

so cuteeeeee
but if you watch the interviews..
u will realised that luozhixiang is very ai mei de
everytime mus see his hair whether messy or not,
in place or not dots.
= =
and oh oh OH!
我的億萬麵包
todae ep 1 le!
SO HAPPY!
it's so nice la!
mus watch lo!
i jus watched finish.
ahhhs.
joe finally acted a "poor" role
hahahs.
in honey&clover & 恶作剧吻 series he was kinda rich
now he is poor
haha!
it's ending song is so nice.
sang by ariel herself.
entitled : 麵包的滋味
:DDDDDDD
no lyrics as the OST is not out yet.
><
alrights.
enuff of my madness~

my bad

2008-11-17T15:22:00.009+08:00

todae woke up and guess wat "surprise" i got?
yvonne sms-ed me!
she's back frm china!
yay!
missed her dearly.
hope that she had fun and enjoyed her trip in china.
^^
but she's in her new home in sengkang..
sighs...
felt so far away.
anyways she sms-ed me to ask if i wanted to go lib.
i agreed then sms-ed weetheng if she wanted to meet up with me then go to lib together.
then she said OK.
but lata on,
she was not feeling well so she cant go.
so i went to dhoby dhaut mrt station waited for yvonne alone.
when she arrived,
saw that her sis was together with her.
later we went seperate ways.
on the way to bugis central lib...
yvonne was sharing her experience in china with me
non-stop
can tell that she enjoyed herself there alot.
hahas.
when we reached the lib...
it's my turn to feel unwell.
wat a gd timing
visited the ladies.
still feeling unwell.
so i went home first and left yvonne in the lib.
(srry yvonne!)
can u believe it..
i jus reached the lib and i had to go back home
= =
and here i am at home posting..

&THANKYOU yvonne for the pooh keychain!
iloveit! :D

here's one of the songs from jaychou's new album, Capricorn.

花海
周杰伦

静止了所有的花开
遥远了清晰了爱
情侣们爱却更喜欢
那时候我不懂这场爱

你喜欢站在那窗台
你好久都没再来
彩色的世界染上空白
是你流的泪晕开

不要你离开距离隔不开
思念变成海在窗外进不来
原谅说太快爱成了阻碍
手中的风筝放太快回不来

不要你离开泪已化不开
经历的阻碍我在等待重来
天空仍灿烂她爱着大海
情歌被打败爱已不存在

你喜欢站在那窗台
你好久都没再来
彩色的世界染上空白
是你流的泪晕开

不要你离开距离隔不开
思念变成海在窗外进不来
原谅说太快爱成了阻碍
手中的风筝放太快回不来

不要你离开泪已化不开
经历的阻碍我在等待重来
天空仍灿烂她爱着大海
情歌被打败爱已不存在
哎

[ i re-edited this skin. and it seems more pinky now. haha! ]

behind every solution lies understanding

new layout too pink?

2008-11-16T09:28:00.006+08:00

NOTE: this is gonna be a short post.

yes YES YES!
yesterday i jus found out that ariel lin & joe cheng
are acting in a new show entitled: 我的億萬麵包 aka love or bread
as lead actors!
it's nice to see them acting together after ariel has acted in the 射雕英雄传'08 and joe acting in honey and clover in recent months after acting in 惡作劇之吻 series.
YAYS YAYS YAYS!
so happpppyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
this new drama is gonna air in the year of 2009.
still has a long way to go tho.
><
last night i also watched barbie in a christmas carol
omg la.
the ghost of present so fat
=.=
the cutest is the ghost of past
the prettiest is the ghost of future
xDDDDD
enjoyed the musicals alot.
the voice is nice too.
hahahs.
childish watching barbie at this age?
i dunno
no one limits that a 14yr old cant watch barbie.
:DDDDDD
nxt yr also got Barbie Thumbelina
rights.
enuff of my kiddy side.
todae woke up decided to go church in the later of the day as i wanted to clean up my room.
my room is in a mess~
morning,
surf-ed the net for blogskin.
and found a suitable skin.
actually this skin i tempted to change before but had no inspirations on editing it so i remained using my old skin.
now i hav inspiration i edited it
^^
okies
off i go!

happy go lucky

2008-11-15T15:36:00.008+08:00

YESTERDAY: TORTUROUS TRAINING
you may ask by who
hahas.
not zk nor claudia..
it's the VIs
walao.
we did marching on the spot for more than 5mins
can u believe it?
IT'S SO TIRING!!!!!
posted this despite being told by the VIs not to post abt this.
;x
but...
this is my blog.!
so i can post wateva i wan!
;P
rights.
besides abt the torturous training,
accred was supposed to be yesterday.
but i think the VIs felt that we were not ready for it.
so postponed it to dunno when.
luckily it was not yesterday.
or else..
majority of us will fail.
but the ma'am is so prettyyyyyyyy
she's nice too.
was patient to teach us before the accred.
but a pity leh.
it's postpone so she "wasted" her trip here ( as well as another sir, dunno his name )
yesterday kailing, siti & i decided to watch Madagascar 2
and i was suppose to on msn after reaching home to discuss.
but realised that i had to rush to church for preparation for the camp.
so i could not on msn
@_@

TODAY
woke up at around 7
was excited abt the movie thing.
so got ready everything and sat infront of the com and blogskin-ed
when the time came to leave house,
i rang kailing up.
and found out that she was unable to go as she was not feeling well.
so went to call siti and inform her abt kailing's condition.
decided to watch the movie without kailing as siti was already out of her house.
met infront of the amkhub mac and had breakfast together.
after breakfast headed to the hub and bought our ticket.
upon buying the ticket,
i saw a "Madagascar" combo.
got the "mug" with large popcorn..
and i wanted that "mug"
in the end did not get..
jus got large popcorn and drinks.
T_T
hang around the cinema as we were too early for the movie, watched advertisements.
soon it was 10 35 so we went in.
i was surprised that cathy was so cold...
goldenvillage was not even that cold.
my gosh.
i did not bring jacket, sweater, scarf or anything to keep me warm.~
was freezing all the time.
Madagascar 2 is a must watch sia.
it's so cute&funny!
enjoyed the movie loads!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDD
after the movie,
i went on my own way as siti had met up with serene to go out.
went to thomsonplaza & serangoon to search for somethings.
xDDDDDD
and here i am back home posting.

NOTE: the giraffe is so sweet in the movie dots!
hippo + giraffe = ?

* i have new smilies. pls do check on my tagboard for their codes!

love is a smoke filled with sighs.

Carry On

2008-11-10T21:29:00.004+08:00

i finally got to watch the movie online!

todae had training.
anddd it rained.
so troublesome.
sighs.
shant elabo on my training.
except that todae both VIs
did not come,
zk fly to thailand,
claudia took over the squad.
and this coming friday got footdrill test.
walalallas~~
worst of all.
i hav not been feeling well since last week.
><
when i came back home frm training,
i immediately like a "dead worm"
jus straight away lie down on my floor and rested
so tired.~!
after awhile,
went to shower.
after shower,
surfed the web for the movie entited : 10 promises to my dog
youtube dun hav,
then search on crunchyroll
and there it was!
i found it.
i watched it despite knowing the fact that i will cry at the end or halfway thru it dots.
and i did happen.
better the show even start,
i started crying knowing that socks, the dog, will die.
after watching this,
felt not so gd.
so did not watch my usual tv programm on chnlu every monday 8pm
went to bed and lie down.
suddenly thought of blogging so here i am
:DDDDDDDD
translation got it from youtube.
not correct dun blame me.
jus felt that the song was written in the aspect of the dog..
sighs. sad.

Be with you
Boa

walking along the cherry trees road with you
the wind is cold
but i still feel happy
today is the day to take one step
tomorrow will be different
the time where we were together was very fair to me
i remember exactly the day when you made a promise
one day i think i'll arrvie
i stay wth you
you're standing on the road
stopping by to look up in the sky
cover of serenity is like the wind
1 second is in fact much time
when you're here by my side
u can certainly feel it
i remember exactly the day when you made a promise
even now your promise has not been kept
because it's important
to be with you
i hope this period can help you
when i get nervous
let's get together
i remember exactly the day when you made a promise
sometime in future when we make it
we can be closer to each other
that is why we are still together.

treasure things that u own now
as one day everything will be turned into dust
and return to the earth.
nothing here really belongs to us
if you really think about it
we are also one day going to pass on.

glimpse of happiness

2008-11-06T16:24:00.006+08:00

panda cute right?! ;D

i am half dead now.
also can be said as a half dead vampire walking around.
todade woke up with my alarm clock ringing at 6+
i continued to cuddle round my blanket hahas.
then i suppose i slept again.
suddenly remembered that todae got training
so woke up at around 6 45am
took my time to do everything
then watched vampire knight ep18 with translation.!
:DDDDDD
ate some oats as this morning alreadi not feeling so well.
got ready everything and left home at around 8 20am
= =
training start at 9am.
i reached school 8 40am liddat.
lols
went to the ladies to tidy my hair up.
awhile later,
kailing rang my phone up asking me where was i also telling me that she's in the canteen.
walked out of the ladies and saw her ; chatted.
training soon started.
athon sir din come todae
><
so joe sir took over.
sighs.
miss him
alright.
todae saw some friendly-ness in joe sir.
last training he was taking the sec3 batch and saw that he was so serious in training.
this time round,
the training was so fun
i said fun right?
i did not say not tiring
it was super tiring
did 13pumpings
@_@
practised marching.
however our hands are not locked & 90degrees, 45degrees
so,
he asked us to swing our hands on the spot,
without moving our legs
that looked so silly rights!
and we did so fast la.
joe sir was jus playing us lols.
it was a kind of "punishment"
after all these pumpings and "punishment",
did marching again
and he said we improved!
YAYS!
after marching,
did some saluting.
salute on the spot,
marching,
right,
left.
the whole time while,
we were all under the hot sun
T_T
soon,
lunchtime came
and joe sir has to go for his studies
so after lunch zhenkhan sir took over.
(skip lunch part)
after lunch,
we had some games.
by that time,
i was alreadi feeling unwell.
too tired.
so after the first game,
kailing&i told sir that we nid to rest and he agreed.
so we went to aside and rested.
after games was drills.
and the atmosphere suddenly changed to so "intense"
solid training has began.
not long later,
a magic happened!
hahas
coke appeared lols.
and everyone drank the coke except for siti,kailing & i
xDDDDDDDDDDDD
after training
i realised that i was way too tired till the point that i feel like calling my papa to bring me home.
SUPER TIRED
in the end i din not.
jus took bus home and found myself a floating "ghost" wandering around
X_X
ohnono! sunburn!

-& kailing. i suggest u that the next time, pls dun eat mac anymore
u jus became so high after eating mac!!!!!!!!!!

you knew it didn't you?
although i did not say it directly.
you should had known.

reluctance of acceptance

2008-11-04T16:08:00.004+08:00

a picture of winnie the pooh and the rest, reminds me of my auntie yesterday who visited me telling me that she nvr heard of a donkey called "eeyore" in disney winnie the pooh. T_T
FINALLY
i got to post something.
hahas.
todae woke up with a funny dream.
suddenly jus woke up together with my body,
sitting up.
then checked the time.
oh no i am 3mins late hahas.
i was supposed to wake up at 7am
woke up brushed my teeth,
changed into my mufti,
then switch on computer and watched my vampire knight
hahas. now ep18 le
and i suppose the next chapt or next,
would be abt yuuki knowing her past le ba.
and i hav been waiting for it impatiently,
finally it's gonna be revealed in anime
i watched the manga le.
and kinda know the whole thing le
however,
felt that anime is still better.
;x
after watching it for abt 20mins?
i went to get my hair fixed and followed papa for breakfast then lata drive me to school.
when i reached school,
zhiling&madeline has alreadi arrived so i followed that to the ladies to get changed and to refill their waterbottles.
oh of the sudden,
kailing poped out saying "MUSHI"
and her "future" boyfren called "lion"
she called him lion becus he had his hair in gold colour.
@_@
for dunno wat particular reason and she was so SUPER HIGH during the whole training.
when doing the turning commands,
facing the foyer,
kailing would be "sticking" her head out,
looking out for the VIs
= =
during lunch time,
the VIs arrived
one was athen sir,
another was joe sir.
both are rather nice.
but athen is better in the sense.
friendly,
allowed as to laugh but get things going.
sec1&2 gave him nightmare as somethings we should know we dunnno and he was like shaking his head most of the time
LOL
and every 20min liddat he would ask us if we wanted a waterbreak.
but we refused him abt 3 times.
then finally he said.
" 5mins water break. go gents/ladies, drink water. "
he did not ask us anymore;
knowing that we are gonna say no.
hehe.
while joe sir took over the sec3 training.
saw his serious face.
and the senoirs are serious too.
><
after the trainings, around 2.35pm,
sec1&2s settled down infront of the redcross rm and interacted.
and lata the sec3s joined us.
the footdrill competition is in the first wk of feb!
which means that we gonna brush up alot of things~
arghhhhs.~
overall,
todae's training was enjoyable while i think the VIs were having nightmare.
muhahahhahs.
xDD

every day is something new,
looking forward to it gives hope;
a blessed hope,
a blessed nation.

blown away

2008-10-27T15:36:00.007+08:00

jus finished watching a new drama series that came out earlier last month.

entitled : 不良笑花 aka Miss No Good

main actors : 潘瑋柏, 楊丞琳

this show is so muchhhh muchhhh more nicer than 無敵珊寶妹 la.
although rainie's voice in this drama is abit...
high..
rather irritating..
i think the storyline is interesting
well at least more interesting than 無敵珊寶妹.
also, both of the male actors are not so chinese speaking ppl
that makes it more funny dots.
and i love the ending song of this drama sang by rainie herself,

entitled : 帶我走

帶我走
Rainie Yang

每次我總一個人走

交叉路口自己生活

這次你卻說帶我走某個角落就你和我

像土壤抓緊花的迷惑像天空纏綿雨的洶湧

在你的身後謹慎的步伐每個背影每個場景

都有發過的夢

帶我走到遙遠的以後

帶走我一個人自轉的寂寞

帶我走就算我的愛你的自由都將成為泡沫

我不怕帶我走

每次我總獨自遠走

保持沉默不皺眉頭

這次你卻說一起走

如此溫柔從此以後

像土壤抓緊花的迷惑

像天空纏綿雨的洶湧

在你的身後謹慎的步伐每個背影

每個場景都有發過的夢

帶我走到遙遠的以後

帶走我一個人自轉的寂寞

帶我走就算我的愛你的自由都將成為泡沫

我不怕帶我走

白忙流過漆黑盡頭潮汐襲來浪花轉動

雲在海岸結成了膜

成為草香草原其中又在傳來一滴彩虹

可在心中還帶著脈搏

帶我走到遙遠的以後

帶走我一個人自轉的寂寞

帶我走就算我的愛你的自由都將成為泡沫

我不怕帶我走

帶我走就算我的愛你的自由都將成為泡沫

帶我走

sadds i cannot locate the song in imeem..
T_T
YESYESYES!
i managed to find the song.(:
its on my playlist now.
u can extend it and click on the song
;DDDDDDD
anyways,
u can hear it in youtube
^^
rights.
enuff of dramas.
now i finally understood wat is a storm.
and understood wat do some ppl mean by "storm nvr ceases"
it's jus storm after storm.
and each storm has a stronger comeback.
how terrible.

a path that was designed for me.
is that right to move on that path?

bitter sweet, life

2008-10-24T22:41:00.019+08:00

will we be able to watch the next sunrise/sunset? are we certain abt it?

i'm back!
and i am no longer myself due to somethings that happened to one of my closest fren which i am not gonna say who and wat happened.
( DUN ASK ME )

the day started of at around 6+ my mum came into my room squashing me to a corner of my bed asking me if there was school todae.
so blurr isn't she?
alreadi collected reportbook.
looked forward for noon to arrive as i am gonna accompany weetheng&yvonne to buy some clothes for their china trip during the NOV
first met in amkhub
had lunch at the foodcourt there.
amazingly,
we saw our school seniors again.
when,
the last time we went out we also saw them at mosburger.
after lunch,
spree-d around at hub & headed to bugis
went to return lib books then went to bugis street to see hoodie again.
but the hoodie is gone.
X_X should had bought it the last time i went there.
SERIOUSLY REGRETTED IT
even in amkhub there's no more...!!
yvonne bought tops there and she was the onli one who bought something.
decided to go to junction8 to seessee.
and yvonne said that her priority in junction8 would be on bottoms.
so left bugis and went to junction8
while yvonne&weetheng were looking for their clothes,
i went to buy honeysticks.
hahas. it's a sure to buy honeysticks when i am in junction8.
so there i was,
happily sucking my honeysticks.
while yvonne was complaining that i was eating my honeysticks so fast and 3 sticks at a go.
= =
not long later,
walkwalk here walkwalk there,
i felt abit empty.
and wanted icecream.
so after informing yvonne&weetheng
i went to buy rums&raisin my all time favourite icecream flavour.
and it cost $5.50.
it was worth it as it was once in a blue.
went back to meet yvonne&weetheng.
and the first thing that yvonne told me was
"how much does that icecream cost?"
"$5.50"
"so expensive for jus a scoop of icecream"
"it's not like everyday i eat it ma"
hehehs
enjoyed my icecream.
and guess wat..
all the shops that we visited,
yvonne looked mostly at the tops.
when she said that she would be looking for bottoms
as she had bought tops in bugis.
in the end,
she still bought another 2tops frm junction8
@_@
later went we headed to the 4rd lvl,
decided to watch a movie.
& we watched high school musical 3,
which is their senoir, last year in Easthigh.
watching the movie is jus like us..
having going to diff classes next year.
so sad.
how i wished we could stay together as one for the next 2yrs as 2E3'08..!
overall,
the movie was great.!
the movie ended around 7+ i think.
walked weetheng out of the hub and accompied her to wait for her grandparents to fetch her home.

in conclusion,
yvonne - bought the most and they are tops onli. no bottoms.
weetheng - almost nth
eunice - money spent on food
can i believe it?
i spent my money mostly on food.
but spent less than $15.
( all these are excluding the movie items! )
;PPPPPPPP

we do not need to know the answers to every questions.
becus at times without knowing them, we could do better then after knowing the answers, also at times it would be better if we had not known the answer.
Y bother knowing, when u know that it would hurt u again?
also sometimes somethings are left unknown so that we can be humble to seek the Lord and to get answers from Him directly.
by doing this we are drawing nearer to God.
God does things in the big picture view.
so with our human nature, we could onli see wat's happening currently, not being able to predict the future of wat's gonna happen.
but God knows.
He knows everything even wat time, which sec u would fall asleep.
although the situation may seem bad,
i believe in it's own time,
all things would be beautiful.
God knows the perfect timing to do somethings so there's nth we should worry abt. jus leave everything to Him, trusting Him and he will do the rest.
it would be safe in His arms.
all things would be perfectly fine under His care.

if there is a arrival,
there would be a departure.
jus like the theory
when there is a up
there would be a down
there is no reason for us to stay here forever

it's destined

2008-10-22T22:18:00.008+08:00

kaname&yuuki <3 vampire knight

aww
time realli passes so fast.
thought back,
it was just the beginning of year 2008
and now its almost the end of it.
for the past few days have been going out

on monday,
went to the Kranji war memorial & changi museum&chapel
first headed to the kranji war memorial.
it was so quiet.
surprised that it was extremely well kept.!
very neat as compared to some areas in singapore like chua chu kang.
of cus the feeling was quiet heavy
as we remembered how these brave soldiers, ppl,
who fought against the japanese during WWII.
after this,
went to the changi museum&chapel.
the museum was also abt WWII.
but its more on How's and the process of attacking,
wat led to the defeat of singapore and stuff like these.
the chapel was a replica built in singapore for ppl to experience themselves in singapore.

on tuesday,
was the archery course.
i was intially very excited abt it.
but went i reached the destination,
saw the environment i started to hesitate
it was muddy,
the grass was not well-kept.
and all of us had to stand under the sun from 9plus-12plus.
how "wonderful".
but learning was fun.
tho i kept missing the yellow part, animal's body..
but it was all abt fun.
hahas.
12plus arrived and boarded the bus.
i was tired but the tirness was overcome by looking at the amount of food joey brought.
so ended up eating.
;x
halfway thru,
cant take it anymore,
slept abit.
at around night,
i realised i had sunburn...
and my nose hurts!

on wednesday,
was the golf course.
it was the same place as last yr,
as usual briefing was first,
then we headed to various courses.
and luckily,
we went under the sun during the morning hrs.
during the afternoon,
my grp was under shelter le!
hahahs!
had fun fun fun all the way
^^
and my sunburn has gotten worst...

today,
was a usual school day except knowing the fact that it would be the last day together as a class.
yet the day went as normal.
in the morning was class contact time
had to do cleanups.
the remaining time before recess watched a "magic" show.
it was kinda interesting.
after recess,
went back to class to collect my reportbk.
hah! mrkoh lied to me abt my lvl position.
he told me i was 7th.
when i open and see my position it was 9th.
dots.
jkjk. din blame him.
he alreadi said that "if i had not remembered wrongly"
the results for streaming were also released.
i managed to go into 3e1.
and most of the ppl in 2e3 managed to go into 3e1.
was glad that most of the 3e1'09 would be made up of 2e3 as 15ppl in 2e3 went into 3e1.
however there are still ppl who did not manage to go into 3e1...
T_T
was not realli happy with my results.
felt that i could had done better...
after this,
headed to the hall for the principal's closing speech for the year.
then stayed back for redcross meeting
WA la.
all the days of the week,
whether it's monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday, friday.
all kanna.
and most of it is twice a wk.
from 9am-3pm
6hrs minus 1hr for lunch.
5hrs of training 1 day.
2days would be 10hrs of training.
WOWS
and the week of christmas also got training.
X_X sads.
what to do...

last days of sec2 life,
being together,
having fun&bad times together,
learning&growing together is what made our lives fruitful in the last 2 yrs.
now that we are seperated,
i pray to God that He will continue to guide&bless all of you;
finding fulfilment in ur lives.

blue-y weekend

2008-10-18T08:23:00.012+08:00

firstly,
i am back on track on watching vampire knight
season 2 guilty is back
however the subs are 1 day later which would be on saturdays.
T_T
i am waiting for the ep where yuuki finally realises who she is and her rode becomes a sword.!
and in manga it is chapter34-36 & chapter40 i think.
cant wait cant wait!
while my shugo chara..
the subs are 3eps SLOWER than the RAWs.
and my tsubasa chronicles...
no animes..
have been watching the manga.
currently waiting for chapter202
secondly,
i changed my skin again
back to the theme of simplicity!
hahas.
it was hard finding that part of me back.
as now adays i get easily crazy over anime characters, actors or wateva.
have been looking for a suitable skin since this morning.
then when i got home from somewhere with my mum,
i began searching again.
and yay!
i found a nice layout & nice background.
combining them together which causes a new product formed.
TADA!
lols it sounded like science huh?
;P
exams are over and here i am talking abt science.
how weird.!
anyways,
here's a song by 胡歌
it's a 2006 song when he acted in the 仙劍奇俠傳 as the male lead.
all the shows he acted in is sad la.
lastly,
he is shuaii! hah!
><

六月的雨
胡歌

一场雨把我困在这里

你冷漠的表情会让我伤心

六月的雨就是无情的你

伴随着点点滴滴痛击我心里

oh~我不相信你不是故意的

却为何把我丢弃在风雨里

oh~我不忍心也不想背叛你

惟有默默等你回心转意

我没有放弃也不会离你而去

哪怕要分开我依然等你

我全心全意等你的消息

终会有一天你会相信我我爱你

一场雨把我困在这里

你冷漠的表情会让我伤心

六月的雨就是无情的你

伴随着点点滴滴痛击我心里

oh~我不相信你不是故意的

却为何把我丢弃在风雨里

oh~我不忍心也不想背叛你

惟有默默等你回心转意

我没有放弃也不会离你而去

哪怕要分开我依然等你

我全心全意等你的消息

终会有一天你会相信我我爱你

(一场雨想念你在我的心中都不可比拟

你走后什么都已经消失在风雨里)

being hopeful of a brighter;
tomorrow.

rhythm of life

2008-10-14T14:50:00.009+08:00

work & hope towards the better ^^

there are always ups and downs.
tho many atimes there might seem to be more downs than ups.
if change another perspective of looking at the down sides,
it would be another area for us to improve
that's why precisely no one is perfect.
cus everyone has to improve in one way or another.
many a times,
down sides may be hard to accept.
and may be thinking that it has been the most terrible experience.
but in reality,
in the later part of your life,
there would be lesser restrictions in your actions and thus there would be more "dangers" to your life.
childhood is a part that everyone, every human being has to go through,
may it be happiness, sad, it's up to u to make it into happiness or sadness.
if you think that all these that u are going thru is really very hard,
then think about ur parents,
they lived thru a more tougher life than it is todae.
they mus had went through things that are many time more terrible than u.
that's y parents are to be respected.
and that's y they are called parents.
cus they had went through much much longer, experienced more of their lives than us.
i believe that any part of your life is up to u to create.
tho some may believe in fate,
but realli,
it's up to u to create,
how u think,
how u react.
life is a process of learning and improvement all the way.
even you are at 80,
u are still learning and improving everyday.
no one is considered old until one stops learning & improving cus u would be staying on the same spot and may fall behind, not improving.
downs are hard to accept.
as they often gives us setbacks.
but it is thru these setbacks we become more stronger and tougher.
cus we learn from our mistakes and improve.
perhaps crying for awhile may help.
crying is not a sign of weakness.
it is jus an emotion.
whether it may be too happy or sad.
but get over it soon and move on.
cus there would be greater obstacles for u to go thru,
as well as new experiences for u to experience & learn.
any rich person or successful person,
would had gone thru one of the toughest lifetime.
becus to become successful,
u mus first learn how to fall.
once u fall,
u pick up learning from their mistakings, becoming stronger and more determined to get it right.
these experiences add up to ur life becoming more vibrant.
and when u think back,
it would be fruitful.
once making a decision,
or a decision has been made,
we would have to bear the consequences for the choices we make.

frankly i dunno wat i am writing.
it's jus a reflection of mine after my EOYS which i seriously regretted.
it may sound childish.
or rubbish.
i dunno.
but that's what i am thinking now.
i had disappointed alot alot of ppl.
especially God.
He mus be the most angry with me of all the ppl i had disappointed.
honestly,
crying does help alot
give urself a chance to improve.
alrights?

[ i jus hate myself ] for commiting those silly mistakes that i shouldn't and couldn't make.

my broken heart like the waves,
shaken heart like the winds

Yesterdays

2008-10-11T09:42:00.010+08:00

on thurs,
yvonne, weetheng & i decided to go out together for once.
since its after the exams.
so wanted to do some window shopping
and yes indeed it was window shopping yesterday
first met up with yvonne at the usual place, her busstop.
took bus and went to amkhub to meet with weetheng.
while waiting,
went to walkwalk. jalanjalan.
then saw a cutttiieee hoodiee.
but it's so ex.
so told yvonne lata going bugis compare prices first.
when weetheng arrived,
we headed to mosburger and had lunch there.
after lunch took mrt to bugis.
hehehes. reach bugis le,
went to library first.
wahahahhas.
the feeling to be in a library was nice.
i returned books le then hurriedly went into the library to search for places to sit.
( everytime no seat de very hard to find one. )
so walkwalkwalk then saw a chair.
increased my speed then chiong there settle down
yvonne & weetheng were like
" eunice, u choing here jus to get a seat ah? "
=.=
spent around 2hrs in the library
the time was around 2.20pm
then i asked yvonne wat time she wanna go she say 4pm
" WAT?! 4pm?!" - eunice
" ya. i still got alot books to read i nid to find answers" --- yvonne
" u all are not allowed to leave till i found my answers" --- yvonne
" nvm la u stay here we go jalan jalan " --- weetheng
not long lata yvonne finally said that " let's leave the library "
;PPPP
so went to bugis walkwalk,
bought macflurry+wild berry
while yvonne got mudpie,
weetheng got macflurry.
dots all 3 different flavours.
omgs lo.
there are so many things i wanted to buy!!!
but no money leh.
who are spon me ah?
;x
lols.
then saw the hoodieee and it was cheaper here.
so decided to go back to bugis sometime lata.
yvonne & weetheng also saw bags that they wan
^^
walk finish le then took mrt back to amkhub.
and went home le.

* thankyou yvonne de mama for the pencilbox.
it's so pretty

decorated some parts myself such as the lace & stickers

<3 [ 10.10.08! ]

days of happiness,
days of freedom
are jus days of yesterdays

Last paper

2008-10-09T17:43:00.009+08:00

isn't this picture shows serenity?

gonna be a short post
;DDDDDDD
YES!
everything is over for once now.
and next week we gonna take back our papers.
felt that time passed by so fast.
look at now,
it's alreadi oct
how fast it passes.
soon,
it would be christmas then,
a start of a new year 2009.
true that time waits for no one.
even when u are not noticing it,
it passes by.
todae was the last paper,
art theory.
was ok
hopefully i do not back any stuupid idiotic mistakes ba.
^^
but for the rest of the paper,
i got confidence that it would be bad
ms ang said that our english was not that well done.
and that worries me alot.
if english fail,
everything else would be useless even if you do well for the rest of the sub.
ohwells.
it has been done.
jus be prepared for the worst.

~~&- it seems like it's time to change a blogskin.!~~
-& blogskin has been changed! feat. Haruma Miura from sky of love

decided to give up every moment of this rubbish of mine
it's jus not worth wasting my time on the rubbish that i had done.
GET OVER IT.

Tenth paper

2008-10-08T12:15:00.012+08:00

actually last night i realised that i had misplaced my scarf.
din bother searching for it as i studied my science till so tired.
so jus went to sleep.
morning,
i woke up searching for my scarf and i found it!
hhehes!
since last night hav been having stomach flu so i cannot eat pancake.
onli could eat bread.
went to 7-11 to buy bread then headed to the pancake shop and yvonne bought her pancake.
T.T
here's the funny part.
we were talking talking talking abt somethings i forgot wat it is.
that we pressed the traffic light button.
then SOMEHOW we jay walked unconciously
COOL RIGHTS!
we were laughing at ourselves la.
i was like "yvonne, y are we jaywalking?"
"oh ya hor!"
then nvm we continued to jaywalk since there's no car
dots.
xD
reached school,
revised science.
halfway heard some squeaky noises.
then weetheng said it was ultrasound.
yvonne replied that if it's ultrasound we cant even hear.
then weetheng was like "oh ya hor"
a few minutes later,
saw a cat chasing a mouse.
reminds me of tom & jerry
hehes.
the cat was using it's claws to "catch" the mouse.
but i suppose it's claws were not "sharpen" before.
took so long to "catch" it but in the end also nvr catch.
worst of all the mouse ran away.
and there goes the cat's breakfast.
dots.
that disracted the whole period of revision.
sighs.
the science paper overall was easy la.
but as usual i make stuupid mistakes.
and it's seriously idiotic
tmr is last paper.!
finally! it's art!
jiayous all!
( although there is a total of 64 slides to memorise )

VAMPIRE KNIGHT IS BACK FOR SEASON 2 ! I MISS KANAMEKURAN!

here's the OST for koizora aka sky of love

heavenly days
Yui Aragaki

目覚ましが鳴る　前に起きて時を止める
思い出せるのは　もうなんとなくだけど　君の事
I woke up before the alarm clock started ringing and stopped the time
Somehow or another, I could remember all about you

一億分の君に会えた　奇跡なんかも
いつの間にか　忘れちゃうかな
忘れた事さえもきっと忘れてしまうの?
The one in a hundred million chance I met you, was like a miracle
Have I forgotten that without noticing?
Are forgotten things really gone forever?

ヘブンリーデイズ　胸のポケットの部屋
君の消えたぬくもりを探すよ
もう二度と君を想う事はなくても　あぁ
まだ少し暖かい　あの日々に鍵をかけて
Heavenly days the room in my chest pocket
I'm searching for your warmth that had disappeared
Even if I'll never again think of things about you, aa
It's still a little warm, I lock it up in the memories of that day

歩き疲れて　座り込んで　途方に暮れて
叶わない夢　運命とか　二人なら言えた
Tried from walking I sat down and was at a loss
We would have talked about unreachable dreams and fate

改札口で言えなかった　言いたかった
「ありがとう」って　言葉はたぶん
「さよなら」よりも悲しい言葉に思うの
At the gate we couldn't speak, we didn't want to speak
"Thank you" is probably
A sadder word than "goodbye" I think

ヘブンリーデイズ　うまく笑えてたかな
最後のキスシーン　震える君の手も
握れなかった　涙さえ落ちなかった　あぁ
ひとりぼっちになり　今更溢れ出すよ
Heavenly days you smiled so effortlessly
The last kiss scene and I didn't even hold
Your shaking hand, I didn't shed any tears. aa
Only after I'm alone did the tears start flowing

ヘブンリーデイズ　胸のポケットの部屋
君の消えたぬくもりを探すよ
もう二度と君を想う事はなくても　あぁ
手を伸ばしてみても　ここにはもう居ないよ
新しい光の下　歩き出すよ
Heavenly days the room in my chest pocket
I'm searching for your warmth that had disappeared
Even if I'll never again think of things about you, aa
Even if I tried to reach out to you, you are no longer here
Under the new day's light, I started walking away

believe in all that can be
a miracle starts whenever u dream

Eighth & nineth paper

2008-10-07T10:39:00.015+08:00

i shall start of with koizora aka sky of love
dun they look cute/sweet together? xD

i admit i was slacking yesterday.
know y?
i was watching koizora
hehes.
it's a japanese movie in the year 2007 fall.
it was said that it bought over 3million viewers to tears.
i dunno if that's true.
jus read it.
but anyways i decided to watch despite of having EOY dots.
><
and it's true that he movie is seriously touching
it's a must watch after ur EOY.

koizora is about a story of a teenage girl, mika,
having ur first love with a boy, hiro.
had relationship thru an unusual start,
then the girl was pregnant.
the guy actually took responsibility of her.
( you know now adays most guys wont do that )
however due to a fall caused by hiro's ex,
mika had miscarriage.
soon after,
hiro wanted a breakup with mika.
the reason was not that hiro no longer likes mika,
but it was becus he found out that he had cancer.
mika, not knowing this,
went forward into a new relationship.
after 2yrs,
she found out that hiro had cancer since the time they broke up and onli had 3months more to live thru a fren of hiro.
then mika immediately went to the hospital and looked for hiro.
quitted school to take care of him.
despite of all this,
hiro passed away

how sweet ! my gosh.
but i jus hate the ending.
why mus it be cancer.
it's jus too cruel.
but SOMEONE told me that if not for the cancer it wouldn't be the climax.
cool right? had a lecture from someone.
T__________T
i cried yesterday after watching it.
then my mama say i siao.
=.=
ALRIGHTS back to examinations.
yesterday was paper1 so decided to post after the whole maths paper was over.
paper1 was easier than i thought it would be.
todae paper2 was so so kinda harder than paper1
overall was easier than i thought.
tmr would be science gonna clear all my doubts thru my tb and continue to memorise art
seriously, art drives me crazy.
a total of 64 slides to be memorised
@_@

JIAYOUS ALL 9 PAPERS DOWN 2 MORE TO GO!

thank you for all the things you have given me.
whether it's happiness, sorrows, anything,
jus let it be a memory, a story that i had.

interesting

2008-10-04T08:23:00.007+08:00

i was surfing on blogskin awhile ago,
i am came across this post.
it's pretty unique hehe.

Before marriage

He: Yes. At last. It was so hard to wait.
She: Do you want me to leave?
He: NO! don't even think about it.
She: Do you love me?
He: Of Course!
She: Have you ever cheated on me?
He: NO! why you even asking?
She: Will you kiss me?
He: Yes!
She: Will you hit me?
He: No way! I'm not such kind of person!
She: Can i trust u?

now after marriage,
you can read it from bottom to the top.

it's interesting lols.
><
got it from miss maybeline's second blog.
but any girl in the world would pray and hope that their future husbands won't be liddat..
another song post. hehes

I need you
Amber guo

你说要带着我去爱
为我推翻所有孤单
用微笑用温暖填满了期待
你却又让爱坏的如此简单
看自己乱了秩序
遗失的爱已成惯害
你离开我还在

i need you i need you
别毁灭我的夜晚
灰暗中泪蔓延得太快
来不及看不清黑夜跨越黎明
忘了清醒忘了继续
i need you i need you
别迷失我的未来
灰暗中退散得太缓慢
想放开该走开不要这片空白
忘了习惯忘了遗憾

你说要带着我去爱
为我推翻所有孤单
用微笑用温暖填满了期待
你却又让爱坏的如此简单
看自己乱了秩序
遗失的爱已成惯害
你离开我还在

i need you i need you
别毁灭我的夜晚
灰暗中泪蔓延得太快
来不及看不清黑夜跨越黎明
忘了清醒忘了继续

也许还会想念
也许还想看见
也许还有感觉
也许还要安慰
也许这一切该完结

i need you i need you
别毁灭我的夜晚
灰暗中泪蔓延得太快
来不及看不清黑夜跨越黎明
忘了清醒忘了继续
i need you i need you
别迷失我的未来
灰暗中退散得太缓慢
想放开该走开不要这片空白
忘了习惯忘了遗憾

阳光在黎明前告白
要我醒来重新爱

didn't know that i was such.
so disappointed

Sixth paper

2008-10-03T12:19:00.003+08:00

i seriously need time to rest and think properly

normal mundane life
went school early and yvonne and i are the first today!
hehe.
i was revising my science as usual instead of literature
knowing that todae was literature paper.
reason? i am "animal farm bookless"
simply put,
i lost my animal farm
><
so revised science.
todae literature was SERIOUSLY lack of time.
under time constrain,
my handwritting was crap it was so horrible.
dun wanna see my lit paper again. HORRIBLY written and done.
so disappointed in myself.
and i also knew that i still got alot alot alot points to write de!
but no time to fill them all in.
or else i wont have time to complete the other 25marks question.
awwww.
i jus need more time.!
another weekend has come.
next 2 papers would be maths.
need to get ready for brain juice le.
or else halfway use finished le then die.
not enuff.
hahas.
after maths would be science then art.
so fast!
earlier last month i was still revising for EOYs.
then later that month start first paper.
then now liddat 6th paper todae le.
seriously,
time can be either taken as a friend or foe.
it's only up to u if you know how to manage it.
sighs.
after paper,
went to cbm to hav brunch (breakfast + lunch)
eat eat eat laugh laugh laugh.
my gosh..
=.=
and now here am i poofs,
at home.
hahas.
alrights off to study my science!
GET READY UR BRAINJUICES ALL!

-& 10oct and 11oct are drawing near!
which means my animes season2 is approaching real soon!
hehe!

-& muhahhahas i uploaded barbie and diamond castle tracks onto my playlist.
they are so nice.! but the song connected is not sang by katharine mcphee. it's by Suzanne Shaw. as Suzanne Shaw is the orginal voice for barbie. and katharine mcphee only sang connected the "remix" version. but i prefer katharine mcphee's version ;x

being humans at times are jus so frickled minded.
sometimes want time to pass quickly,
sometimes want time to pass slowly.
at the end of the day it's still not up to us to comment.
the time will go by by it's own timing.

random

2008-10-03T11:35:00.008+08:00

Believe
casts of barbie and the diamond castle

hidden beneath the ground
is the spring that feeds the creek
invisible as the wind
that you feel upon your cheek
and every breeze that whispers
reminds us constantly
sometimes whats real is something you cant see

(Chorus1)
believe in all that can be
a miracles starts whenever you dream

believe and sing from your heart you'll see
your song will hold the key

waiting behind the clouds,
theres sky thats always clear,
and chasing away the doubts
you watch the sun up here

i'm trying to reminds you,
that each new day begin,
theres always hope,
if you'll just let it in

(Chorus1)
believe in all that can be
a miracles starts whenever you dream

believe and sing from your heart you'll see
your song will hold the key

You can paint the stars,
you can't touch the sky,
spread your wings and
disturber you can fly
won't know until you try

(Chorus 1)
believe in all that can be
a miracles starts whenever you dream

believe and sing from your heart you'll see
your song will hold the key

oohhh....

(Chours 2)
believe and dream one can be
ask your heart
and your will to see
believe that beauty is yours to see
Your song will hold the key..

aahhh...(when you)
believe,believe
(aahh)
(when you believe)

lyrics are so nice
^^

Fifth paper

2008-10-02T11:43:00.008+08:00

decided to put eeyore agains.
it's jus so cute

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!
unfortunately,
we are all above 12.
NO MORE CHILDREN'S DAY
T____T
anyways this post is more for yesterday than todae.
yesterday morning revised/studied my D&T
in the afternoon went to thomson plaza area and had slice fish noodle for lunch with my papa.
(nmama not feeling well) ><
its sad sia.
no more slice fish so instead had fried fish.
after lunch,
went to amk centre
go there buy "slippers"
bought le then went to amkhub
cus papa wanted to buy a memory card for himself and also use it as a thumbdrive.
then i bugged him to get me a eeyore toy
then he also learn frm me bug me say if he buy for me he cannot afford to buy the memory card for himself.
i dun care him and continued to bug
dots. how inconsiderate and selfish i was.
EVIL too.
hehehe! beware of me!
;x
after long period of persuasion he finally agreed.
YAYS!
headed to go buy eeyore.
went to the shelf there.
and found my papa cannot reach for it.
hahahahahas!
i was standing there and laughing like crap.
then got a lady passed by with a trolley then my papa was like saying.
"ask the lady to stay there for one moment"
(he wants to step on the trolley to reach for the eeyore)
finally he jus tiptoed and got the eeyore lols.
while queueing up,
the lady infront of us bought loads of things and i really meant LOADS
she had a sum of abt $150!!!
in one single receipt!!!
then my papa was like saying
"i think the lady thinks that it's free"
again,
i laughed like crap.
asked my papa to hold the eeyore for awhile then i actact go forward and looked at her bill.
$62 le. still got so many items to scan
=.=
after purchasing eeyore,
my papa went to check on the prices and finally decided on wat he wants to get.
on the way home,
i suddenly popped out this sentence to him then he was giving me the "wth" expression.
"papa, you know now i am in examination period?"
then he was like.
"then u still wan to go out?"
HAHAHAHHAAS
reached home,
my papa took my eeyore and told me to claim money back from my mama then he will return.
how lame.
after awhile i felt tired and i slept... without my eeyore
@_@
woke up around 6, bath, ate then studied science instead of D&T
D&T is way too boring.

TODAY
the title today sounds like the newspaper today lols.
alright.
todae went to school early as usual,
bought harshbrown.
and the price increased from $1.50 to $1.70!
wwaaaaaaaaaa so ex.
despite of that,
i still bought it hehehe.
too despo for junkfood.
then yvonne had milo and sandwich.
went school settled down in LP and study!
;DDD
skip skip skip.
the D&T paper overall was kinda easy.
except that the time given was too short.!
not enuff time to complete the last part which worth 10marks.
listening compre for MT was also kinda easy except for the options are tricky
in the sense they are quite close to each other.
ohbothers.
tmr more worst literature
writing marathon!
huat ah!

&- i realised my eeyore is jus on my papa's bed i can jus take it lols ^^

all good things will end someday
no matter how good they are.
one day,
everything will end.
getting hurt,
feeling discourage,
but you have to surpass it and keep moving forward.

Fourth paper

2008-09-30T12:39:00.005+08:00

isn't eeyore jus simply so adorable, so irresistible?

todae went to school,
saw weetheng walking here and there in the school.
then lata she say she saw crockroaches, then got frog near the water cooler.
i kpo go forward and looked at the frog.
it's so cute!
although it's disgusting in the texture of the skin.
you know wat i mean..
it's slimy
but it's cute..
hophophop here and there lol.
as usual settled in the LP.
then saw marcusJL there so earlier.
hmphs.
so nice la so quiet.
then after jason came...
& followed by the other boys one by one come...
everything changed so noisy
=.=
then lata i noticed there's a cat walking towards LP told yvonne and weetheng then they immediately stood up
@_@
are cats so scary?
it's cute.
alrights you may think i am siao..
saying everything so cute.
well not everything leh.
i dun find dangs cute
;P
skip the assembly part.
history was 2h 15min
intially had enuff time de.
but then towards the end i noticed not enuff time le.
then my handwritting completely changed dots.
so messy.
overall,
the paper was kinda easier than i expected.
^^
D&T is next!

here's a song from barbie and the diamond castle
its kinda girlie but i liked the lyrics.
it's about friendship!
;DDDDDDDDDDD

Connected
Katharine McPhee

I'm blind-folded on this carriage ride that they call life.
Keep trying to make it through the next turn, knuckles white and holdin' tight.
So here I go, takin' the curve,
but I know that I'm never alone.
I think of you, and how you never let me go.

I feel connected (connected), protected (protected), it's like you're standing right with me all the time.
You hear me (you hear me), you're near me (you're near me),
and everything else is gonna be alright.
'Cause nothing can break this, nothing can break this, nothing can break this tie.
Connected... oooooh connected inside.

It's not an accident, the time we spent apart.
But now we're so close, I can always find you right here in my heart.
You've given me somethin' I need, and I don't ever want it to end.
Because of you, I know I've found my strength again.

I feel connected (connected), protected (protected), it's like you're standing right with me all the time.
You hear me (you hear me), you're near me (you're near me),
and everything else is gonna be alright.
'Cause nothing can break this, nothing can break this, nothing can break this tie.
Connected... ooooh connected inside.

Everytime that I breathe, I can feel the energy.
Reachin' out, flowin' through, you to me and me to you. wake or dream,
walk or stand, you are everywhere I am.
Seperate souls, unified, touching at the speed of light.

oh, yeaaaaaaaaah, oh whoa YEAH

I feel connected (connected), protected (protected), it's like you're standing right with me all the time.
You hear me, you're near me,
and everything else's gonna be alright.
connected (connected), protected (protected), it's like you're sitting right with me all the time.
You hear me, you're near me,
and everything else's gonna be alright.

'Cause nothing can break this, nothing can break this, nothing can break this tie.

connected, connected inside, connected, connected inside, connected.

oh Yeah!

if i could wish for one thing
i'll wish for the smile that you bring

Third paper

2008-09-29T11:00:00.008+08:00

i want to hug bearbear now..
these bears are in korea the bear museum thing. they came out in princess hours(:

last night told yvonne that i would be going to school earlier with her.
so i set my alarm clock to 4.55am wake up.
who knows.
in the morning.
my mum woke me up and told me its 5+
looked at my alarm then i noticed i set it as 4.55pm
=.=!
so told yvonne to go first.
i'm so stuupid sia.
me & my stupid mistakes.
todae was geography
DIE LE LA.
geography not nice to do one.
so difficult.
the MCQ questions' options are so close and tricky sia.
and i think i have been tricked le
T_________T
aiya suan le now geo over next coming up is history..
no use crying now..
it has been done.
if wan cry,
at the end of the journey then cry ba.
when everything is over.
off to study!
[:

here i am praying that you will not regret for the decisions are have made in your life.
wishing you all the best in ur life.
as time goes by i pray that ur determination will not weaver.

Second paper

2008-09-27T09:32:00.009+08:00

UPDATED ON 280908
new simlies are in my tagboard now!
^^
they are from chocoxbaby
her simlies are so kawaii
ok i am updating now is jus to tell u that i've got simlies on my tagboard to make it look more "refreshing"
hehes.
alrights back to my revision.!
poofs~
&- tmr geography paper then followed by history
T_______________T

UPDATED ON 260908
woke up at 5+ to meet yvonne and go school study for chinese
half way on the bus,
she realised that she forgot to bring her dictionary
so dropped off at amkhub and crossed over the road to take bus back
then during the 2nd trip,
decided to walk to school
who knows...
stand at the traffic light then RAIN
so sway =.=
passed by the market bought pancake
;x
then had a terrible time walking to school
reached LP saw weetheng settle down and studied.
half way yvonne realised there was something on her leg..
she swept it away then realised that it was a lizzard
and kept yelling !@#$%^&* , jumping here and there..
@_@
skip the part of morning assembly
chinese paper II first todae..
and it was difficult la!!!!!!
cmf fail.
then after recess paper I..
compo also kinda hard not much choices..
i also dunno wat crap i wrote.
aiya conclusion:
LANGUAGES 100% FAIL.
well..
languages are over which means.
all the memorising subjects are up..
JIAAYOUUS ALL!!
[:

UPDATED ON 270908
changed my blogskin again.
hehe ;x
i also changed my playlist to a list of instrumentals
* i also has some songs with voices.
cus found that my other playlist is jus too "noisy"
so changed to this.
hope it's better
;DDD

missing all my animes!

can we go back to the days
where you are with me
protecting & supporting me?

first paper

2008-09-25T20:11:00.006+08:00

i know i am not supposed to blog,
ohwells,
came back to post a short one since todae is the first paper of my EOYs
ENGLISH!!!!
morning woke up got ready
then around 6.30am or rather to be more accurate.. 6.28am,
received a sms frm yvonne informimg me that she has reached school.
T.T had to go school alone.
ok nvm abt that part.
reached school,
went to LP to see yvonne, weetheng & nurul revising their eng.
skip skip skip the morning assembly part.~~
the eng paper one was 65% hard.
and part one i swear i anyhow do.
= =
no time left.
then part two i chiong like siao.
MORE TIME FOR ENGLISH PAPERS PLS!!
after this,
was recess...
then a little accident caused by ED
shant elabo...
@_@
next was paper two.
Passage A was difficult to understand as we only had the "body" text.
got no idea wat it was about nid a bit of anaylsing.
but Passage B is slightly easier.
phew~
for summary...~
actually had most of the points le.
jus no time left so last min tried to cancel here and there then end up a few points onli!!!
GRRRR!!!
wateva..
jus disappointed with myself.
anyways eng is over..
tmr is chinese.
another thing to worry abt.
actually not onli chinese.
it's the whole EOY.
X_X
deaddie fishhhh.~

it's the number of wounds will just make you stronger,
the more defeats you suffer,
the more you should improve

i jus need time

2008-09-23T17:34:00.008+08:00

one step at a time
Jordin sparks

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's the faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

*******************************************************

hehehes jus kinda bored and posted a song again.
i am so sad la.!
vampire knight, shugo chara, special a
all going for season2 le
and they are all releasing after oct10
!!!!
so long la!
T______________T
alright.
i dunno wat's up with me
jus wanna say srry.
for some particular reason.
i promise i will let things go back to the way it was.
i promise.
it may be hard but it's not impossible.
i'm jus so tired of everything.

if only i could go off to somewhere that's called "paradise"
to a place where there is jus so peaceful
no troubles nothing negative.
jus being in the pressence of God is jus a simply wonderful thing..

sometimes

2008-09-20T08:47:00.003+08:00

kiss the rain
Yiruma

I often close my eyes
And I can see you smile
You reach out for my hand
And I'm woken from my dream
Although your heart is mine
Its hollow inside
I never had your love
And I never will

And every night
I lie awake
Thinking maybe you love me
Like I've always loved you
But how can you love me
Like I loved you when
You can't even look me straight in my eyes

I've never felt this way
To be so in love
To have someone there
Yet feel so alone
Aren't you supposed to be
The one to wipe my tears
The one to say that you would never leave

The waters calm and still
My reflection is there
I see you holding me
But then you disappear
All that is left of you
Is a memory
On that only, exists in my dreams

I don't know what hurts you
But I can feel it too
And it just hurts so much
To know that I can't do a thing
And deep down in my heart
Somehow I just know
That no matter what
I'll always love you

So why am I still here in the rain

days grow longer and as the time goes by,
things are taking their change.
may love remain no matter how the weather change.
may love remain no matter how tough the life may be.
may love remain no matter how cruel the reality is.

i jus wonder..

2008-09-19T19:04:00.003+08:00

一直很安静

空荡的街景想找个人放感情
做这种决定是寂寞与我为邻
我们的爱情像你路过的风景
一直在进行脚步却从来不会为我而停
给你的爱一直很安静
来交换你偶尔给的关心
明明是三个人的电影
我却始终不能有姓名
你说爱像云要自在飘浮才美丽
我终於相信分手的理由有时候很动听
给你的爱一直很安静
来交换你偶尔给的关心
明明是三个人的电影
我却始终不能有姓名
给你的爱一直很安静
我从一开始就下定决心
以为自己要的是曾经
却发现爱一定要有回音
我们的爱情像你路过的风景
一直在进行脚步却从来不会为我而停
给你的爱一直很安静
来交换你偶尔给的关心
明明是三个人的电影
我却始终不能有姓名
给你的爱一直很安静
除了泪在我的脸上任性
原来缘份是用来说明
你突然不爱我这件事情

it's better to be hated for who you are
than to be loved for who u are not

miss me?

2008-09-15T20:27:00.007+08:00

srry guys for not updating regularly
exams are coming in 10 more days
><
coming back here to post one short one
;DDDDDDD
anyways,
a "new" drama show has recently caught my eyes~!
篮球火 aka HotShot.
it's a mus watch drama AFTER THE EOYS!
hehhehehehes
all the actors are so shuaii wuzun, luzhixiang was also the lead actors~~

here are the 3 lead actors dots.
especially JERRY!
jus a cold person. yet such a interesting guy.
xDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
they play basketball so shuaii~
oh yeas.
i also discovered a "new" anime!
Shugo Chara
the characters are so cute!
especially the cat man!, ikuto!
;xxx
here are some of the pics of Shugo chara from web :

ikuto! his gentle side

his "transformed" side.

tadase the super thickskinned "king"

finally a grp pic. center girl is amu!

alrights.
i am high now.
OKIES. BACK TO ACADEMICS.
BYES! ;DDDD

你的个性就象风一样。风只有方向，风这么会有中心呢?

oops! i am so srry

2008-09-03T19:17:00.006+08:00

another pic of vampire knight
;DDDDDDD

firstly,
i am so srry for not posting for so long and for such a long time.
becus i hav been having tight shedules in my life.

secondly,
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!
yesterday in school was celebrating teachers' day as well as ACES day.
the day started off as usual,
meeting up yvonne first then met lihui at the amk mrt bustop.
kinda rushed to school as we were almost late.
after the morning assembly,
we had to do some "exercises" followed by the principal's speech for the teacher.
then the sec2 express had briefing on their streaming courses this yr.
sighs i am totally lost in this dunno which class i should go to.
headed back to the class for english period.
well, did not really have lesson
but chatted abt the streaming courses thing with ms ang
after english was class contact time.
spent some time with mrkoh and talked abt the class streaming thing too.
had to do some housekeeping matters then it's time for recess!
hahas.
after recess headed to hall for the concert for teachers.
overall the concert was ok la.
yesterday ended so fast.
went home then did my revision and got ready for tuition
= =
sighs.
left abt 3wks then EOY le.
time really flies eh.
especially in sec2.
i've gotten a little "rushedup"
;x
ohyeah.
september holidays had started le yes and there's also loads of hw to do.
as expected.

thirdly,
my current fav taiwanese drama 命中注定我愛妳 has ended!
T_____T
it has a total of 24ep.
gonna miss all of the actors!!~!~!
and there's a new drama coming up..
but it does not seem interesting although nicholas teo in it..
it's called 無敵珊寶妹
i am also missing tsubasa chronicles & vampire knight
tsubasa's next chapter which is 198
will onli be out in 10sept.
then vampire knight is released in oct.
walao it's season 2 is so chio la!
saw the trailer le..
urrrggghhh. got to redirect my mind back to my studies first
or else.. i am dead fish.
><"
i'm off now
gt to finish up all the assignments.

updated on 3sept
decided to change the colour theme to green as now is nearing exam period.
need some quietness and calmness
more match the feeling now
;DDDD
i added a new instrumental piece in my playlist
played by a korean pianist called Yiruma
i loved his piano pieces they are all so lovely!
especially kiss the rain!
that's y i put it in my playlist
^^
awwws...
i jus want a new handphone nowwwwwwwwwwww..

oops. i jus realised that i dun love you like i loved u yesterday.

2008-08-21T20:40:00.002+08:00

gonna post a song by JJ lin
it's kinda a old song.
but who cares it's nice that matters.

简简单单
林俊杰

我们都是泡沫轻轻一碰就破

眼泪是爱的火花

昨天就像飞机穿过我的窗口

我什么都没有

我摊开了双手你予取予求

直到你想自由

痛苦的时候我不会闪躲

就像树叶甘心为春风吹落

只是简简单单的爱过

我还是我

简简单单的想过

就不算白活

简简单单的疯过

被梦带走

当故事结束之后

心也喜欢一个人寂寞

我摊开了双手你予取予求

直到你想自由

痛苦的时候我不会闪躲

就像树叶甘心为春风吹落

只是简简单单的爱过

我还是我

简简单单的想过

就不算白活

简简单单的疯过

被梦带走

当故事结束之后

心也喜欢一个人寂寞

只是简简单单的爱过

我还是我

简简单单的想过

就不算白活

简简单单的疯过

被梦带走

当故事结束之后

心也喜欢一个人寂寞

after all these that we have been through,
i am still alone.

i just want an answer...

2008-08-17T21:17:00.011+08:00

i just want an answer..
no rather i just want your answer..
but i know that won't happen.
sighs.
posting 2 songs again ;x
it kinda old

遇见

听见　冬天的离开　我在某年某月　醒过来

我想　我等　我期待　未来却不能因此安排

阴天　傍晚　车窗外　未来有一个人在等待

向左　向右　向前看　爱要拐几个弯才来

我遇见谁　会有怎样的对白　我等的人　他在多远的未来

我听见风　来自地铁和人海　我排着队　拿着爱的号码牌

我往前飞　飞过一片时间海　我们也曾在爱情里受伤害

我看着路　梦的入口有点窄　我遇见你　是最美丽的意外

总有一天　我的谜底会揭开

got alot of things to do and rush these adays.
and furthermore EOYs are nearing.
stress are piling up day by day.
anyways,
last week went to the national library in orchard.
walaowei.
the library is darn nice la!
i wanna go there agains!
but..
c'mon i nid to get things done.
cant leave them jus liddat.
- somethings are just needed to be done; no matter wat
and here is the second song
another song from tsubasa chronicles (:

Feathers of love

Far in the light, I can see it
In every scene of the night
A tiny feather of love
I gotta go
Destiny never finds the way for me, my love
Even in the night I see your face, in the dark
So I never lose my way to you
I never close my heart
The light is always there

Time goes by, we can never stay the same
Now we're come so far from love memory
Though your smile is gone, we will never be apart
In our hearts we are one, for love melody
The future arrives with your love

Willing to go to a place
Where you never need to cry
I'll take you there

Willing to find an answer
In all the winding road we have to come through

In the heat of the summer, cold of winter, I'm here
So you never love your way to me
Never close your heart
Your light is always here

Time goes by, we can never stay the same
In the shades of hope, in love memory
Though your smile is gone, we will never be apart
In our hearts we can hear the love melody

- somethings are jus left unknown for your sake..

how i wish things would come harsh on me and jus let me handle them all at once then taking them one by one. it's jus simply so torturing.

i really really want it

2008-08-05T23:15:00.011+08:00

cute rite?
this a pic of the dog when it was young with Akari.
anyways,
todae was a usual day in school except for the part for my CCA training.
i was darn blur as to wat has to be done.
in total had 3 rehersals.
reported @ 3.45pm.
ended nearly 6pm
wheeews.~ so long
after CCA,
accompanied yuting, nurul, siti in the command thingy
it was like so lame la. the 3 of them wanting to be the parade commander.
it was chaotic. trust me.
not long after,
we left school and headed home.
bused home with yvonne and nurul.
oh man.
this friday is the thing le.
and i dun think i am ready for it la.
no confidence how.
plus i now got no confidence in my uniform also.
in the sense would it be crumpled or wateva.
this is seriously bad
i dunno wat has gotten into me also.
but ohwells.
wat to do.
the decision has been made.
so got to get along with it.
><
furthermore i am the IC.
i wonder y zk chose me to be the IC
sighs.
anyways jus watched the preview agains for the "10 promises to my dog"
so sad lo
in the end i think the dog died.
becus of some "dog emotion" problem also of its age.
T___________T
this is a brief intro to the story/movie:

" 12-year old Akari fell in love with a puppy that had wandered into her house and adopted it. She names it "Socks" as its' paws looked like they had white socks on. The girl and dog are inseparable, and the pet was a great comfort to Akari while grieving her mother's death. However, as Akari grows up, her feelings and interest moves away from Socks. Year by year, their distance grows, which also leads to her physical distance as she moves to a far off city, and must leave Socks behind to a childhood friend. One day Akari remembers the 10 promises that she had made to Socks and her mother... "

want to cry le.
lols.
i wonder when will ppl upload it on youtube.
i seriously want to watch it!!
okies. enough of my mad indulgence.
got to do my homework byes!

live for every moment and let every moment count. for when they are gone, there is no way you can get those wasted moments back.

whoooosh!!! happy happy

2008-08-02T23:21:00.009+08:00

todae was a long long day~
class outing with mr dinesh today!
woke up around 8, papa bought breakfast for me
^^
then continued doing my lit project.
and completed it around 10.
then rushed down to serangoon to get somethings.
after getting somethings,
headed home and got rdy and met up wit yvonne.
waited for her at busstop. then called her where she was.
she tell me to go collect ball from vera.
and thus i went up to vera house's blk and collected the ball from her.
so sads. vera could not go.
T__________T
anyways,
went down and met up with yvonne.
yvonne is supa supa weird
when i was further away from her,
she came forward to me.
when i came nearer to her,
she walked further from me.
i dunno wat's caught up in her mind lols.
when i got nearer,
i called out "durian for sale" as the volleyball "looks" like a durian to me.
and she diao-ed me and said that i looked cute when i was walking
=.=
alrights i know i am lame.
boarded the bus and did not notice nurul at first.
and when yvonne turned back,
that was when she noticed nurul.
went forward and stood near her and chatted abt somethings.
got down the bus at amk hub
yvonne, nurul and i went to the foodcourt and had our lunch since the boys were still playing.
yanqin, joey and prema then joined us lata in our lunch.
soon all assembled at the breadtalk there getting ready to go.
here comes the funny part.
when i reach the meeting area,
i was "dragged" away by weetheng.
then the next moment,
edmund called me asking where i am.
i shouted at him i was just behind him lol.
he turn and turn then noticed me la
-____________-
took mrt to vivocity.
then took the train to sentosa.
in the train so funny lo
3-4 ppl sitting in 2 sits.
so cute rites lol.
when we arrived at sentosa, walked awhile to arrive at the beach.
applied sunblocks which did not belonged to me
;xxxx
then most of the boys went in the water.
as well as the girls.
but i was the only one who did not enter the water
;DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
watched them playing and having fun in the sun and water.
is just such a nice scene.
i mean it's not a everyday thing we could see this.
stayed in the beach from around 3+ - 7plus.
took loads of pic.
but too bad they are not with me.
its either with sabina, yvonne or mr dinesh.
after the girls bathed,
had a long drag for waiting for each other but in the end mr dinesh allowed the ppl who were so thristy to go buy water.
so weetheng and i skipped on the way there
lol so fun la
walked around see see where water can be bought but in the end bought coke from a "icecream" shop.
omg la the shop is so pathetic
give coins as change one lo.
no notes.
then discussed where to hav our dinner.
in the end decided on going back to vivocity to have our dinner
ate western food agains for dinner
had the same thing as lunch lol
then took mrt home.
on the way also took alot of pics.
soon, bishan soon arrived and mr dinesh had to go.
sighs.
then the rest of us departed from amkhub.
bused home with yvonne and nurul
reached home so tired la
jus bathed and currently waiting for my hair to dry~~~

enjoyed myself today!

Every hope, every power
lies in the heart if a seed that flowers
Intertwined all across the land
we're all seeds in the maker's hands

half-hearted day

2008-07-30T17:03:00.006+08:00

finally updated!
todae went school as usual.
these days hav been having stuupid headaches.
i also dunno for wat particular reason it came to me.
zzz.
first period was the science after the morning assembly
was not concentrating as i was editing my lit project wrotten by jianliang.
dunno wat jianliang was writing for his lit
= =
during art period,
was doing the claymation.
logged onto my blog and listened to song.
then half way was not able cus peixuan wanted to find sound for our claymation video.
T_____T
after recess was geo, english then chinese .
was not paying attention to both of the lessons.
was not in the mood.
;xxxx
after school,
stayed back while to discuss the lit wit vivian.
it was not even a discuss.
more of a reading period lol.
all we did was that vivian read the first 2chapters that jianliang wrote and that's abt all.
went down to canteen for lunch with weetheng, yvonne and vivian.
vivian headed home earlier.
then chitchat wit weetheng and yvonne abt somethings
and bused home with yvonne!
;DDDDDDDDDD
came home,
checked my email and realised that my blogskin request was done!
and it is the skin that i am using now
^^
so happy la
it's abt "the 10 promises with my dog" !
and this realli made my day.
million thanks to XFANTASYWINGSX who made this skin.
although i waited for so long,
it was worthwhile
it's so cute!

For you i will..
my sincere wings wish tail your shadow
till the peak of dawn

yiiiipppppeees

2008-07-28T17:31:00.008+08:00

firstly,
i would like to apologise for not blogging for such a long timee.
my blog is so dead.
;xxxxxxxxx
jus changed my blgskin not long ago.
felt that i shld change a mood; should get away frm my craziness over kaname kuran lols.
so changed into this kawaii blogskin.
^^
~~( but actually i found a more plain pink blogskin. but i dun feel pinky this week. so decided to change to this instead of the pink one. maybe will change my blogskin soon. who knows? )~~
took me a great time to decide to change the vampire knight skin to this kawaii skin
><
felt so relieved yet sad & disappointed on sat.
felt relieve is becus the entre thing is finally over!
but disappointment and sad was becus we did not get into the semi finals.
put in so muchh effort, and burnt dunno how many midnight oils le..
still got "kicked" out in the first round.
T________T
unhappy things hav been happening in sec2.
how i wish sec2 life would soon be over.
sighs~
anyways, when i reached home,
i watched 命中注定我愛妳 ep20.
my gosh la.
this ep so draggy
cant stand it.
but next ep will be more funny lols.
cant wait..
waiting for tsubasa chronicles & vampire knight new ep/chapter will be out!!
so long~ realli missing those animes..
`these days i am jus not my normal self.
no idea why too.

here's a random lyrical poem:

Without us noticing, the moon silently illuminates the night sky
I think of you on this night as loneliness lingers beside me
My foolish heart is like an exhausted dream that could no longer soar
My sincere wings wish to tail your shadow till the peak of dawn
I just want to take off into your warm embrace like this
Can’t you see that my love is glistening for you?

the words are beautiful; isn't it?

emo-ing

2008-07-22T16:24:00.007+08:00

decided to put a picture of fay/fai for a change instead of kaname kuran
^^
fay/fai is frm tsubasa chronicles
a magician and lata became a vampire.
sighs talking abt vampire..
i miss vampire knight!!!
nid to wait for another 3more months.
sads
T_________T
no mood to post.
gonna post a nice song tho (:

wind beneath my wings

Ohhhh, oh, oh, oh, ohhh.
It must have been cold there in my shadow,
To never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, that's your way.
You always walked a step behind.

So I was the one with all the glory,
While you were the one with all the strength.
A beautiful face without a name for so long.
A beautiful smile to hide the pain.

Did you ever know that you're my hero,
And everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
For you are the wind beneath my wings.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
But I've got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.
I would be nothing without you.

Did you ever know that you're my hero?
You're everything I wish I could be.
I could fly higher than an eagle,
For you are the wind beneath my wings.

Did I ever tell you you're my hero?
You're everything, everything I wish I could be.
Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle,
For you are the wind beneath my wings,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

Oh, the wind beneath my wings.
You, you, you, you are the wind beneath my wings.
Fly, fly, fly away. You let me fly so high.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.

Fly, fly, fly high against the sky,
So high I almost touch the sky.
Thank you, thank you,
Thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings.

life as you see through life
you will see that there is so much more that we don't understand
and the only thing we really know
is things don't always go the way we planned

oinkoink~

2008-07-12T21:40:00.008+08:00

arghh the pic supposed to be animinated!
but dunno y isn't in here..
as usual,
another pic of kaname senpai & yuuki
:DDDDDDDDDDDDD
yesterday jus knew that ep13 was the end of season 1.
season 2 gonna release onli in oct..
omg by that time it would be EOY
sobsobs!
these adays got moody ;x
todae was the very special walk.
as usual,
uniform grps will be on duty
so needed to wake up early
woke up at 4.30am.
got ready and met claudia at 5.30am at the busstop.
supposed to be 5.25am.
i reached onli at 5.30am.
was late by 5mins.
claudia then decided to take cab since we needed to report to school at 6.
took taxi got midnight charges zzz
erm $4.80 to $6.80
=.=
reached school..
oh no. school gate not opened yet
so went opposite to sit with other ppl.
then soon the school gate opened.
it was so dark..
rested till 6 then go change into uniform le.
around after 7am we gathered and moved off to our respective stations.
ekekee.
now i realised i was kinda lucky tho i was at the 2nd last station which was the 4th station.
my grp could listen to music in a sense as i was in townsville.
then the band students were practising
xDDDD
kinda slacked. but when the walk started,
we kinda got serious and stood properly.
7plus we reached our stations drag till around 9 then they start their walk.
the walk was around 1hr la.
stood for so long~~
could not even sit..
at most i onli squat..
after this,
went back to pathlight to help out at the base.
kept on getting into the base and getting out walkwalk see see.
waaaaaaaaaaa so tired la.
but drank 2cups of soyabean with jialin & sinyee
xDDDDDDDDD
it was like "ahhhhhs so refreshing".
heng ah. our base was inside a room got aircon.
or else seriously die sia
cannot sit at all.
uniform white colour T_T
the sec1s were release the earliest then around 1plus going 2. sec2s were released left the sec3s behind to do duty.
><
had lunch at mac with zhiling & yvonne.
sat there until 3plus the seniors are still doing the clean up.
heng ms jey allowed us to go.
but also kelian the sec3s.
they mus be very tired~~
X_X
reached home around 4 bathed and slept till now lol.
currently eating "dinner"
okies.
now i am still so tired~~
want to slp.
on money & tues is E-learning.
no nid go school.
hais jus pray that everything goes smoothly
^^

` Eunice Olsen is so pretty~~~~

Happy 14th birthday to SHANNON!
sorry for not giving you any presents.

hahahhas

2008-07-08T18:46:00.005+08:00

another pic of vampire knight!
kaname sempai is so shuaii~
* caution i am currently mad
xDDDDDDD
todae went to school as usual.
first period was MT.
the CD player got prob sia.
and still stop at the chinese words. " jiao bu sheng "
then got extra sound effect.
the boys are like anticipating for that moment to come again as the teacher tried to replay the thing for 2x.
=.=
lata was english.
hahahahas some1 got punished for some words and had to write lines.
ok la i shant be so evil
:DDDD
after recess was maths.
the class was making loads of noise until the maths teacher cant take it tho and something unpleasant took place
><
and then was CE and SCI.
due to mr koh absence,
mr dinesh came and went thru the science chapter7 before the test began.
walaos.
the last bonus question..
GRRR.
Olevel question sia.
i went to calculate the wrong side of the angle.
or else i could had gotten it right.
T________T
after school,
planned to go to weetheng house to do art project.
but then during the last min,
weetheng rmb that she had the maths tuition thingy with the sec3 so cant make it and we could not go to her house.
instead went to KBCC.
lols.
at first was peixuan, joce, vera, nurul & i onli.
later, yvonne joined us.
most of the time i was playing volleyball instead of helping yvonne or nurul to cut the buildings.
@_@
after the cuttings were done,
yvonne "coached" me on volleyball.
and i got hit 2x by the ball she served
one was on my stomach lata on my cheek
X_X
and poofs i am here at home ^^

not gonna bother anymore.
jus gonna concentrate on wat is more impt.
for that's the best for us

oh oh ohs

2008-07-05T18:09:00.006+08:00

this was kinda the original pic of my bg blogskin.
amazing right?
it was edited so much.
i seriously respect gd blogskinners...
todae woke up @ 7.
prepared myself and headed to school for the Special Walk briefing.
due to the wrong information given by claud,
we were wearing home clothes and cannot enter the school
so got to wait outside the school till they begin their walk.
wa.. the walk was seriously long.
i am at station4 inside townsville LOLS.
wearing full U too.
omg it's gonna be so ps.
><
anyways it ended around 10 plus then went to bbt shop wit my junior, kenny, then slack there.
reached home around 1pm liddat.
did some hw and checked if tsubasa chronicles chapter192 is out alreadi or not.
and it's out!
yays!
the chapters are getting more and more exciting.
cant wait for the release of all the other chapters lols.

想做你的公主
JS

或许你没看出来
周围的人都在猜
有种感觉正在我们之间展开
喜欢你偶而作怪　
不经意流露的坏
其实体贴实在　
孩子气的胸怀
曾经有过的恋爱　
彷佛一片空白
直到遇见你我才真的存在
我只想做你的公主　
拥有那平凡的幸福
华丽的珍珠　
不如眼底的专注
对我深深呵护　
我想我是你的公主
终结这多年的追逐
当你抱着我　
地球也暂停脚步
我剎那间清楚　
你是我的幸福
沉潜太久的孤独　
这一刻获得救赎
我忽然好想哭　
感激你这一路
陪我笑　陪着我辛苦
无悔的付出

you guys know about the new movie "10 promises with my dog"?
i jus found the theme song sang by BOA on my playlist in that movie!
entitled - Be with you
i wanna go watch sia.
heard that it's a very touching drama.
hope that i can watch!
:DDDDDDD

what a sad day

2008-07-04T20:35:00.006+08:00

MUHAHAHHAS GOT SO INDULGED IN VAMPIRE KNIGHT
okies srry i am crazy
xDDDDDD
*BEWARE!
jus came back from my CCA.
so tired~!
i hav not been myself these days.
dunno wat's gotten into me.
completely lost dunno what i am doing where i am going where i am heading..
todae in class, i hav been a "mad" woman laughing like crap for whatever reason i dunno.
during CCA,
also sad.
1) got some frenship prob.
dun wanna elabo.
nth delightful in talking abt it
2) heard that there's P.O.P
but since my CCA is small so cannot do P.O.P
instead did pumpings and saluted to her in replacement for the P.O.P
see other uniform CCA do.. so chio lol
new leaders are so shuaii~!
;xxxx
almost teared when saluting to my dear sec4 sumita.
gonna miss her sooo soooo much <3
she's preparing for her o'lvls, which is in 3months' time.
wish her all the best!
:DDDDDD
hais sad-ie sads.
gonna complete my hw le.
bbyes.
sighs.~

Power of your love
lord i come to you
let my heart be changed,renewed
flowing from the grace that i've found in u
lord i come to know
the weaknesses i see in me
will be stripped away
by the power of ur love

cho:
hold me close
let ur love surrounds me
bring me near
draw me to ur side
and as i wait
ill rise up like the eagle
and i will soar with u ur spirit leads me on
in the power of ur love

lord unveil my eyes
let me see you face to face
the knowledge of ur love as u live in me
lord renew my mind
as u will unfold in my life
in living everyday
by the power of ur love

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

for the past 3 days

2008-07-03T15:32:00.003+08:00

i miss tsubasa chronicles!
T_T no new chapters are coming out..
how i wish the authors would end their summer holidays earlier
X_X
wa..
finally, the first course is over for the entre thing.
got so tired.
cus on tues night, went to mac to do entre project but was unable to finish so yvonne and i stayed up to around 2.30am. then slept..
then 5.30am wake up again.
i had less then 2hrs of sleep
=.=
on wed after school went to singapore poly.
so crowded with ppl and had some courses and lectures.
our instructors are nice and friendly.
realli enjoyed myself there.
but yvonne and weetheng were unable to go as they had match so joey replaced them.
the netballers won anyways :D
CONGRATS!
tmr got geo test..
i am so tired~!~!~!
last night my papa came back.
zzz.
requested him to get me white wine & chocolate.
he din get it.
in the end he brought back a can of beer and told me that beer and wine taste the same.
i wonder if he does hav a taste bud prob.
@_@
but anyways,
WELCOME BACK HOME PAPA!
off to study now.
^^

YES! FINALLY

2008-06-29T14:30:00.008+08:00

ok freak.
this morning i was woke up by a alarm clock by my faher's @ around 530am
he's going out of singapore for a business trip.
gonna be back on wed.
so sad.
i gonna miss him <3
SAFE JOURNEY PAPA!
ok..
this morning got woke up by my mom again @ 7am
zzz!
no peaceful sleep!
grr.
got ready to church and POOFS. out i go for church @ lighthouse.!
during that time,
yvonne rang me up.
was unable to answer cus i am in church
=.=
so i sms-ed her.
she told me that i needed to do the ppt slide.
i was like.
0_o?"
lost la.
i din even know i needed to do the ppt slides.
hais i jus wonder wat had happened to me these days.
after the holidays i hav been liddat.
maybe i rusty le.
need to get back to the right track soon.~
so srry to yvonne..
i made her so rushing and anxious and angry..
SO SRRY!
after church had lunch rushed back home.
to do my stuff and hw..
jus watched finished Special A ep12 .
finally it's out.
is ep is so lammmmeeee.
but anyways now i know le the shedule le.
:DDDDDDDDDDDD
Vampire knight - every wed
命中注定我愛妳 - every mon
Special A - every sun
well.. for Tsubasa Chronicles i still dunno
as the authors are still taking break..
no new chapters are coming up.
i am watching it's manga until chapter 192 - the 7 day promise.
here comes the exciting part and the authors and taking a long summer break.
X_X
here's another song frm Tsubasa Chronicles

If you are my love
The rain dampened cheek that smelled of tears
The traveller with the gentle gaze
The nostalgic music that resonates softly
I wander among memories i cannot remember
My dream flies away on tiny wings
to the place where our feelings won't disappear ; just the two of us
going beyond the distant ocean and sky
Your gentle gaze illuminates me
in the dark night
i want to see you

there's another translation starting wit : kiss me sweetly i'm sleeping in silence
something liddat.
i dunno which is correct
but this translation sounds nicer and sweeter lol
so i posted this
xDDDDDDDD
anyways i nid to go le
bbyes~!
* maybe lata i will update more? i dunno depends.
here's the another translation version

If you are my love
kiss me sweet
i'm sleeping in silence
all alone in ice and snow
in my dream i'm calling your name
you are my love

in your eyes
i search for my memory
lost in vain
so far in the scenery
hold me tight,
and swear again and again
we'll never be apart

If you could touch my feathers softly
I'll give you my love
we set sail in the darkness of the night
out to the sea
to find me there
to find you there
love me now
if you dare...

Kiss me sweet
i'm sleeping in sorrow
all alone
to see you tomorrow

in my dream
I'm calling your name
you are my love...
my love...

i like the other version tho.
but it seems like most of the english version they provided is this translation..
T_T

oh craps (UPDATED)

2008-06-28T10:05:00.016+08:00

yesterday came back frm CCA training was so tired.
bathed and ate and dinner and i slept without realising that a received a sms frm yu ping telling me that i nid to go for a RC meeting todae morning.
so 8plus, claudia called me.
i woke up.
telling and asking me that i needed to go for the meeting todae cus i am one of the IC for one for the stations for the special walk.
felt so bad..
><
anyways,
i changed my blogskin themed "Vampire Knights".!
hehehhees.
re- edited by myself.
took around less than half an hr..
=.=
got so attached to this japanese anime.
:DDDDDDDDDD
was also looking for Special A skins too.. but found none.

here's a song frm Vampire knight.

Still doll
Hi miss Alice
with glass eyes, what kind of a dream
are you able to have?
are you entranced by?

For me still my heart tears apart
and flows out
memories pierce unto the mended carvice

still you do not answer

this is the ending song..
i am locating the opening song thru imeem.
but is seems like there's none.
hais.
the opening song is nicer.
i agree the song is and sound creepy.
but the anime itself is sad and creepy.
lols.
waiting for tsubasa chronicle new ep to be out either let it be manga or anime. but i heard that the authors are having a long summer break.
sighs. here's a song frm tsubasa chronicle.

feathers of love
Far in the light, I can see it
In every scene of the night
A tiny feather of love
I gotta go
Destiny never finds the way for me, my love
Even in the night I see your face, in the dark
So I never lose my way to you
I never close my heart
The light is always there

Time goes by, we can never stay the same
Now we're come so far from love memory
Though your smile is gone, we will never be apart
In our hearts we are one, for love melody
The future arrives with your love

Willing to go to a place
Where you never need to cry
I'll take you there

Willing to find an answer
In all the winding road we have to come through

In the heat of the summer, cold of winter, I'm here
So you never lose your way to me
Never close your heart
Your light is always here

Time goes by, we can never stay the same
In the shades of hope, in love memory
Though your smile is gone, we will never be apart
In our hearts we can hear the love melody
The future still shines, close to you

*i also added a few more other songs to tsubasa chronicle
xDDDDDDDDDDD
and Special A.. dun hav new ep!! grr!
~~lata will update more~~
^^
then around 11plus,
yvonne rang me and told me that she tried to contact mi this morning too.
=.=?
and told me that edmund triston and her were in school jus finished on their flowerbed.
WTH?~
realli... WAT ON EARTH HAS HAPPENED TO ME?!
she also told me that she going to far east flower shop in thomson plaza asked me if i could accompany her.
but too bad for me after lunch my mum dun allow.
grr..
still got loads of hw & projects to do..
JYJYJYS ALL!
@_@

I will be back when i call me
so don't need to say good bye

oh my..

2008-06-26T20:48:00.002+08:00

Yesterday
i shall jus skip to the afternoon part..
yesterday after school,
went for redcross meeting.
after this,
met up with yvonne, weetheng, joey, selina and ting wei and headed to amk central for some sushi lunch.
i settle down with joey, weetheng and yvonne.
while selina and ting wei settled on the next table.
took plates of sushi and ate.
weetheng kinda has a small stomach..
ate after a few she said that she was full.
while weetheng was there..
we laughed non-stop.
i tried not to be diturbed while eating..
but seriously we were laughing and having fun. at the same time.. disturbing ppl
;x
selina and ting wei had fun too.
there was one funny part.
SERIOUSLY FUNNY.
it was stated on the menu that.. for every 100g of wastage will be charge of $5.90.
there were some we took and din finish it while.. some were dropped.
so in order to save money,
selina took a piece of tissue.
wrapped those wasted food in the tissue,
placed it in her pocket and threw it in the dustbin outside.
COOL RITES.!
and yvonne nicknamed her " shen cian aunty ".
=.="
around 4plus weetheng left has she has something to do.
and left yvonne, joey, ting wei, selina and me.
yvonne and i tried to eat as much as we could.
but i think overall we did not manage to eat 60 plates.
(aim is to eat around 60plates in total)
i think onli around 50+.
T_T
during the last few minutes,
i order mochi and strawberry pudding.
the mochi is so cute and delicious.
there are 3 balls in total ; costing $2.99
white - peanut filling
green - green tea filling
red - red bean filling
and i got to tell u guys..
the green tea they provided is suppppperrrr REFRESHING & LIGHT.
i LOVE their green tea!
well,
there was a japenese dumpling...
that i kinda got prob wit pronouncing it.
so yvonne video-ed the proceess of joey teaching me how to pronounce that word.
=.=
wa. yesterday..
crazy one
laugh non-stop cannot eat..
ate still my hearts content..
eat until stomache & laugh still stomach cramp
lols.
then around 5+ we went home.
yvonne joey and i walked to our bus stops and we departed.
and bused home with yvonne!

Today
i shall also skip to the afternoon part.
during the afternoon,
the sec2 express went to the singapore museum.
it was quite interesting.
as we got our own "listening tool" as we venture around
managed to take some pictures.
but was unable to upload them as i am now busy with some D&T project.
now chatting on9 wit yvonne and lihui.
:DDDDDDD
will upload another day.
tmr got cca training.!
arghhs.
tired man.
hav been going out after school since wed and also slping late since last sun.
@_@
byes!
POOOFS~!

random

2008-06-20T16:52:00.002+08:00

伍家辉
虽然我愿意

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
(心还想着你)

Better than I

2008-06-19T14:47:00.000+08:00

Better than I
David Campbell

I thought I did what's right
I thought I had the answers
I thought I chose the surest road
But that road brought me here

So I put up a fight
And told you how to help me
Now just when I have given up
The truth is coming clear

You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go the need to know why
For you know better than I

If this has been a test
I cannot see the reason
But maybe knowing I don't know
Is part of getting through

I try to do what's best
And faith has made it easy
To see the best thing I can do
Is put my trust in you

I saw one cloud and thought it was a sky
I saw a bird and thought that I could follow
But it was you who taught that bird to fly
If I let you reach me will you teach me

For You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go the need to know why
I'll take what answers you supply
You know better than I

holidays are over!

2008-06-19T14:18:00.003+08:00

3 more days & it's over
tueday i went back to school in the morning for some MT preparation on the "idea's day" which is todae.
prepared a short reflection that was meant to be shared to the teachers.
ya so the speakers are vivian, jian liang & me.
went to school and i was the earliest as my father needed to go work.
waited and waited.
then xu lao shi came.
she told me to write a few more lines and gave me 10mins to do it.
at the end of the 10mins,
she came.
and she edited my paper.
then vivian came.
and last was marcus.
practised a few times then can go home le
:DDDDD
todae,
i went to school the earliest too.
memorised my scipt.
and todae vivian was the latest.
xu lao shi proceeded with the practising then soon it was alreadi 10.
then we went to AVA room.
wa. heng principal and vice principal not there.
stood behind xu lao shi while she was presenting her slide.
after her presentation,
i was the first to speak.
=.=
i admit i was nervous.
so ya. i made mistakes.
then vivian spoke, followed by marcus.
aftter this was refreshments.
and after refreshments we had around 2hrs of break.
zzz.
vivian and i went to bbt shop buy bbt.
then went back school around 10.40am.
talktalktalk.
then went up to ava room to wait to get a cert of appreciation.
bused home with vivian~

on tuesday before going to school,
i watched 命中注定我愛妳.
waa. is ep is so draggy lo.
it's like the whole ep spent on a day.
it's kinda getting draggy now..
i hope that the next ep will be more exciting to watch..
><

changed my blogskin

2008-06-10T09:53:00.003+08:00

changed my blogskin tho.
found that the pink-y blogskin does not suit me.
so change to one simpler one in colour.
i personally find this is better lols.
the original one was not wit the flower icons.
tell me if the icons are kinda extra.
i will remove them.
oh ya.
if anyone happen to know where the source of the icon pls tag and tell me..
i will credit that person asap!
:DDDDDDDD

finally it's monday

2008-06-09T10:49:00.014+08:00

lols.
todae woke up and jus watched 命中注定我愛妳.
ok la this ep nth muchh.
more of xinyi & dylan.
next ep would be better i suppose.
as usual.. it's getting draggy.
and the director say that since the popularity is increasing he will be adding abt 5 more ep.
so i suppose the whole thing will drag.
how i wish 命中注定我愛妳 will be like the other drama They kiss again 2
showing 2hr per wk instead of jus 1hr lol.
i am so greedy.
;DDDDDDD
yesterday watched the legend on tv.
so pissed la.
watched halfway le then went into my room.
jus cant stand it.
-_______-"

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happiness held is a seed;
happiness shared is a flower.

pissed

2008-06-08T09:31:00.007+08:00

yesterday i was elaborating "the legend" drama to my father while he was watching the drama.
he was like:

" eunice why the more u talk the more angry u sounded? "
" becus i got to angry wit the director. He swapped the actress and twisted the end. i jus dislike it."
" it's not up to u to judge or say. "
" i know but it's jus.. NOT MY TYPE. i tell u i onli like the beginning. towards the end u ownself watch. i dun care le. stupid director. "
" you say one more time.."
" ok fine fine srry. "

lame rite
but really la...
i seriously dun like the ending so freaking pissed off.
the beginning was so nice...
why mus the director make such a change..
T_______T
anyways so happy todae.
sunday todae that means..
命中注定我愛你 is air tonite in taiwan!
which means i can get to watch it tmr on youtube.
yays~!
ok here are the quiz peixuan asked me to do(:

Quiz No.1
1.) what age do you wish to get married?
- dunno lol. havent tot this..

2.) what do you want to do now?
- finish up all my assignments and can relax.

3.) what is the dumbest thing you've done in your life?
- till now.. is that i recognised wrongly. i took my uncle for my father.

4.) do you think you have enough confidence?
- depends. different aspects.

5.) any dreams?
- ya sure. but it's a secret(: hopefully it comes true.

6.) do you believe in eternity love?
- perhaps and perhaps not.

7.) what are you afraid of?
- trying something new alone.

8.) if you meet someone you love, will you confess to him/her?
- dunno. see how i feel first.

9.) list three good points of the person who taged you
- they are nice, friendly and happy ones.

10.) what would you like to do if you were able to go back in time?
- making no regrets in the past.

11.) type of person you hate.
- c'mon is this something not nice to talk abt.

12.) do you cherish everyone of your friends?
- i admit i dun. but i will try my best.

13.) do you believe in god?
- yes definitely.

14.) what do you think is the most important things in your life?
- being happy in every sec/moment of my life

15.) do you need a gf/bf?
- dun think so at the moment.

16.) what kind of friend do you hope to be in their eyes?
- someone who is encouraging who is ever ready to lend a listening ear and to lend a hand to help.

17.) if you had a chance which part of your character would you like to change?
- my nagative thinking. (to be more positive.)

18.) what are your wish for now?
- successfully complete my studies and make my dream come true(:

19.) do you believe in fate?
- not really.

20.) how do you think about yourself
- someone who is trying to change her bad ways to become a better person

Quiz No.2
1.) ideal home in future?
- a home that is filled with love and warmth.

2.) if you have a dream to come true,what would it be?
- everyone around me will be happy everyday.

3.) what would your dream wedding be like?
- nvr thought of such a "far away" question. no idea.

4.) what would you do with a billion of dollars?
- donate to charity/help others who is in proverty and left some for myself to spend.

5.) would you give up for love/love for money?
- love is more vaulable than money.

6.) which is more blessed?loving someone/being loved?
- both.

7.) how long do you wish to wait for someone you love?
- i will nvr wait endlessly. once i got the answer i will move forward.

8.) if the person you like is attached,what would you do?
- perhaps give up.

9.) is there anything that made you unhappy these few days?
- not being able to be with friends, classmates.

10.) what is the worst thing you have ever felt these days?
- waking up late..

11.) what cheers you up the fastest?
- when i reflect and start to think abt the positive along wit my frens, family around me.

12.) how do you see yourself in ten years
- i can't fortell can i?

13.) who is currently the most important to you?
- earthly: parents. Eternally: God.

14.) would you be single/rich or married/poor?
- i seriously dunno.

15.) what is the first thing you do in the morning?
- greeting everyone in the house a "gd morning!"

16.) will you give all in relationships?
- give all? depends.

17.) if you are in love with 2 persons simultaneously,who would you pick?
- ill wait for the answer frm my heart.

18.)what type of friend you like?
- someone who is true to herself/himself.

ok. i've done the quiz.
such a long one..
tired ;x

fairytales are never reality.
how i wish they are real.

random!

2008-06-05T14:37:00.003+08:00

jus found another song frm 太王四神记.
it's another pretty sad song.
i am unsure abt the title tho.
but it's one of the main themes in the show.
i jus gonna put the tite as the legend.
got it's english translation frm website agains.
this song is in my playlist.
:DDDDDDD

The legend
太王四神记

Even if I can't say anything
it doesn't matter to me
As long as i can see you
even if I cannot have you or touch you
I should sweep away my heart once and withstand it
Where you are
if you are well
I worry about your days
In the suffering night swallowed the moonlight
Thoughts if you keep me from sleep

The day we are born again
may the heavens approve
our love which could not be realised

Even if I cannot be next to you
I am always behind you
As a lonely shadow
you wouldn't look back
Even if you want to
you must avoid me
who could not give you happiness even for a little while
One step, two step, walk a bit more hurriedly then me
so my two hands and two feer will not block your way

The day we are born again
may the heavens approve
our love which could not be realised

Dear heaven, cover up my love
Dear wind, blow away my pain
Please don't let my tears be known to her/her

touching rites?
this song also reflects the show itself.
but still..
I JUS SIMPLY DUN LIKE THE ENDING.
grrr.
the girl supposed to be SAI'AO which is the present day xiu zhi ni.
but till..
the ending got twisted.
swapped the 2 actresses frm the last time(2000yrs ago) till now..
hais.
ohwells~.

When memories don't occupy a space in your heart, will you do whatever it takes to give reminiscence a chance to take place again?

lalalas (song lyrics are edited)

2008-06-04T22:06:00.006+08:00

jus watched finished 太王四神記 which is aired on television on the weekends on chnl u onwadays.
kinda got hooked onto that drama so i impatiently went onto youtube to watched finish it all.
the ending was unexpected.
i dun realli like the ending..
it twisted..
however.. not wat i imagined.
i watch until i got kinda pissed at the end.
i also dunno y.
i like this song 千年恋歌(Thousand Year Love Song) which is from the drama.
i got the english lyrics frm website.
~~hopefully i can get the song into my playlist.~~ i already got it on my playlist.
:DDDDDDDDDD

千年恋歌
太王四神記

When my sadness is thin like a withered flower
Unable to fall asleep because of these tangled years
I cling to the rough sigh
That would gnaw deeply into my heart

If I collected tears of a thousand years
Would it be enough to show my heart
At the end of the sky where the sunset glow has left
Today, I linger on again

As the frail sunshine of early dawn
Is woken up by last night's dream
My gloomy dreams of yesterday
Disappear into the legend

If I collected wishes of a thousand years
Would it be enough to show my heart
At the end of the field where the sunshine has left
Today, I linger on again

As the lone wandering low wind
Loses its way, breathing heavily,
I ease my sorrow in this world
With the raindrops of noon

If I collected love of a thousand years
Would it be enough to show my heart
At the end of the sky where the moonlight is sleeping
Today, I linger on again

If I collected longings of a thousand years
Would it be enough to show my heart
At the end of the field where the rising sun is shining
Today, I linger on again

sad rights?
T___________T
the story is something like this.
it is reflected in the song itself.
but i jus dun like the ENDING!
grrr.!

it's hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen
but it's even harder to give up especially when it's everything you ever wanted.

2nd day of CCA camp

2008-05-31T08:18:00.002+08:00

yesterday came back home at around 10plus.
i was surprised that we were released early.
slept at midnight tho.
i also dunno y it became so late.
i came back home bathed again.
xDDDD
yesterday morning,
woke up at 7am too.
dad brought me to school(:
the day started off wit some morning exercise, followed by some running.
andd...
also kanna pumping.
-_____-"
after this,
was breakfast i think..
i forgot the sequence!
oh no!
nvm. i will try my best to remember.
had bread and some peanut butter, kaya, biscuit wit tuna.
after this was some of the preparation of the campfire item.
got into my grp which is grp3.
at first we were alone. as in the grp.
got no idea wat to do for the campfire.
but decided to do singing.
think think think...
dunno wat song to sing leh.
almost gonna sing apologise
but heng.
we managed to combine wit kailing's grp which is grp1.
then together sang all i have to give again!
^^
prepare... practice...
then was some evacuation lessons.
after this was lunch..
had my wan tan mee.
but every packet has chilli and most of the cadets were unable to finish the food as there's chilli.
><
next was drills.
halfway thru the drills,
it rained.
but we continued to march out into the rain.
then who knows since when.
there were ppl on top.
who were practicially potato, buva and log.
went to the top of the school and pour down pails of water down on us while we were marching out.
so cool and fun!!!
so ya...
all of us got wet.
except...!
nisha.. dunno y she not wet one.
wanted to get her wet by hugging her..
but nvm.. it kinda failed.
next was some constructing of paper scretcher with newspaper.
my grp did kinda the worst.
;x
then it was... bathing time!!!
we were late for the timming that we were given.
we were late for 6min so we owe zk, ma'am and the rest..
60pumpings.
jus before dinner,
we did 20pumping.
so left 40pumpings.
hais.
but this is better then last yr le.
last yr more then 100+ pumpings were done.
okies.. dinner time!
had kfc for dinner.
shared wit kailing.
had salad and baked potato then washed up get rdy and prepare for the campfire item le.
practice practice.
ok!!! time to assemble at the field.
got to sit on the field which is on the grass.
but it was ok.
at least there's no mud.
;DDDDDDDDDD
had campfire wit npcc.
so took turns to perform our campfire item.
overall,
all did well.
including the npcc.
really enjoyed the camp.
`thanks everyone for everything.!

1st day of CCA camp

2008-05-29T21:22:00.006+08:00

woke up at 7am.
prepared myself and father brought me to school.
reached school early at 8 15am liddat.
suppose to report at 8 30am.
tmr gonna report to school at 8 15am.
><
the day started off wit some briefing and drills.
kinda did badly and got into some running.
did not waited for some of the cadets who did not manage to catch up wit the running/jogging speed;
thus got into some pumping.
;x
anyways,
after this was breakfast.
had some currypuff(tuna), peanut pancake & a cup of milo.
todae the numba of items needed to bring were so little.
first time ever in a camp.
onli needed to bring a set of dark clothes, 1.5litre waterbottle and nametag.
tmr...
hais...
nid to bring more such as boots, mugs, writing materials and bathing items.
as we are bathing in school tmr becus the camp ending at 10plus.
and again,
i dunno how to go back home...
so scary.~
after breakfast were some first aid lessons, activities(Drills)
then it was outdoor cooking for lunch.
ohmy it was sad especially in the hotdog.
we got to cook our lunch ourselves.
but..
the hotdog was cooking since and before my grp cooked the noodles.
and at the end of the cooking of the noodles,
and finished the noodles,
the hotdog was not cooked yet!
arghhs. dunno wat happened.
@_@
after lunch were some outdoor activities related to team bonding.
had to seperate wit kailing.
so sad.
T_T
had some "powder" pouring over our bodies which made us into ghosts walking around under a hot afternoon sun.
next was some "picking" up of coloured ping pong balls in a bucket filled wit water.
my grp was the first tho (:
after this was some "island walking".
had to make us of some paper plates to walk over to some area.
then,
we proceeded to some castle building thing using plastic cups.
it was quite difficult,
but my grp managed to pull it thru.
had to build a castle wit 20 plastic cups,
without any sticking of anything,
had to lift up the castle and one by one place each cup into a bucket.
after this was followed up by some "soap rubbing" on our bodies.
it was kinda crazy.
a whole regular sized bar of soap..
rubbing it on our skin to make it disappear.
my skin hurts!
._.
grins~ HAHA!
now come the disgusting part.
the whole squat had to swallow a cup of tomato juice with either a combination of 2:
1) vinegar
2) egg white
3) soya sauce
4) lime
my grp decided to add egg white and lime into our tomato juice and everyone in the grp has to drink it.
it was like YEWWWWWWWESS~!
gross ok..~!
had some wash-ups after all these activites.
then headed to the canteen to celebrate kailin ma'am bd.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KAILIN MA'AM!
at the same time hav our teabreak.
had some cake, biscuits wit tuna & a cup of milo!
debrief-ed and headed home!
*sleeping in process*

if we have a good stance and strong pose,
the outcome will be what we expected it to be.

oh no!

2008-05-28T20:42:00.005+08:00

1) my blog has been so dead
so srry guys. hav not been posting regularly.
dunno wat to post and no time to post too.
T_T
2) uh oh! i guess i am back to my old bad habits.
ahhs~!.
but nvm shan't say anything abt it.
;x
after the school holiday began,
monday was a free day for me.
stayed at home and did my usual things.
tues...
went back to school for the entre thing.
mr yeow spoke to us abt the marketing thing.
todae..
went back to school for the entre thing too.
mr mak elaborated more on wat has to be done and our aim..
how to make it come true and things like this.
so my grp finally decided on doing the book exchanged as introduced by mr mak himself instead of the pink icecream said by thati's mum.
thus,
yvonne elocated our tasks.
the entre thing ended abt 3plus going 4.
went to cbm wit yvonne and joey.
yvonne wanted to eat something.
so settled down and she had greenbean soup while i had my ching teng.
chatted and headed home wit yvonne.
:)))))))))))
gonna hav redcross camp on tmr as well as friday.
it's not overnight.
it's a gd thing and bad thing.
gd thing is that we don't hav to bring so many things.
while the bad thing is that we missed out the fun.
><
ohwells but on friday also hav to bathe.
hais.
the camp kinda end late at night lehs.
thurs - 5.30pm
friday - 10.30pm.
i scared to go home sia.
(some1 accompany me pls?)
anyways..
ya... gonna hav a better slp tonite.
also dunno wat to bring sia.
guess,
ill jus bring normal things there.
and i bet there's gonna be training too.

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling thru
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true

-Cinderella

i want icecream!

2008-05-23T21:34:00.005+08:00

there are things in life u can control and u can't.
some things are lost while some are gained.
can't be possible that there's onli gain when there's no lost.
it's always through lost,
u learn how to gain.
life is so vulnerable.
it's easy to lose it.
but it's impossible to get it back..

anyways,
todae went school as usual,
brought something for weetheng.
^^
went to the hall for morning assembly as there was principal talk.
and the best part is that our recess was brought forward to 9 05am instead of 10 15am!
stayed in class for awhile to "settle" somethings.
;x
after recess had the PW presentation
then mr koh came in for the "class bonding" thing.
as usual...
did our growth booklet thingy.
managed to see my results slip by then..
arghhs.
my english & maths.!
seriously nid to improve on themmm..
overall for L1R5 i got 12points.
grrr. 10< is the best..
and i got 12..
T_T how disappointing.
after school,
went for some "light lecture" (entrepreneurship) by thati's mum.
it was so interesting.
and she suggested "pink icecream" was laughing like crapp.(me)
alrights.
after this,
it was onli 2 09pm..
my mama coming onli at 3 45pm..
so decided to go weetheng house awhile while yvonne headed home.
played with shelan,
did some blogskin surfing and played the piano.
and weetheng was like singing....
so highhhh piitttchhhhhh~~~~~
so cute la!
;DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
soon it was like 3 30pm so went back to school.
weetheng decided to bring shelan along!
i was so happy!!
i walked shelan..
then weethengg was infront.
she ran.
the dog ran.
i ran.
-_____________-"
soon gonna reach school le .
got calls frm my mum using one of my frens hp.
upon knowing that my mum had already reached school,
i ran into the school;
immediately went up to the 2nd floor.
found that my mum was already talking to mr koh.
(oops i was late)
unfortunately,
my mum spoke bad things of me.
and he was like trying to control his laughter.
><
my mum la!
dun give face one.
(it was like my pressence was not there at all!)
after this,
i asked my mum if i had spoken too muchh.
she said "yes".
X_X
went out of the school and saw weetheng..
surrounded by the class boys.
i went over and "sayang-ed" shelan.
she so CUTE!
soon..
i gtg so i waved bbye to weetheng then i went off wit my mum to ntuc.
wanted to buy icecream one..
in the end cannot buy.
cus talked too much.
onli had a vanilla icecream cone instead of a tub.
ohwells,
better then nth.
@_@

pictures of shelan(:

what am i suppose to do?

2008-05-21T18:18:00.007+08:00

卓文萱
消失的彩虹

我看见你的瞳孔
看见的那片天空
你指尖尽头
架空属於我的梦
那是清澈的星河
那是橘色的云朵
遥远的天国
建筑这一道彩虹
你把我眼底的寂寞
彩绘成缤纷的宇宙
跟在你身后
带我静静遨游
请不要放开我的双手
不要缺席我的以后
请留给我
慢慢消失的那一道彩虹
已经习惯你的双手
牵著我的那种温柔
只有你懂
我会流泪是因为最深处的感动
我以为天是黑的
你忽然放了烟火
我才发现我
生命可以很闪烁
你把我眼底的寂寞
彩绘成缤纷的宇宙
跟在你身后
带我静静遨游
请不要放开我的双手
不要缺席我的以后
请留给我
慢慢消失的那一道彩虹
已经习惯你的双手
牵著我的那种温柔
只有你懂
我会流泪是因为最深处的感动
请不要关掉我的镜头
不要熄灭我的以后
还给黑夜
永不消失的那一道彩虹
已经习惯我的双手
依然感受我的颤抖
只有你懂
我会流泪是因为最深处的感动

hahas another song.
got no mood to post anything.
getting more and more disappointed as the days passed by.

快张开这双眼
你就会发现真爱
cause you and i
都开始更明白
这爱情的真谛
就是要放手简单

ahhhhs~!

2008-05-19T22:00:00.002+08:00

todaee was a tiring day...
woke up at 8++.
got "booked" by my parents to go out wit them..
then 9++++ weetheng sms-ed me asking me if i was free to go to cb mac to do art.
at first i couldn't make it as i alreadi said "yes" to my parents.
so bobian rejected.
after breakfast,
changed of plan wor.
i was able to go to cb mac to do art.
^^
at first,
weetheng say meet at 12noon.
lata it was like 12 19nn.
i tot i was late..
so i walk fastfast.
reach mac..
no1 was there lol.
i was the first!
dots.
so i tot i went wrong place.
so called weetheng up then she say she will reach in 5mins time.
wa heng sia i seriously tot i go wrong place.
lata came nurul then lastly..
yvonne~.
some of our class boys were there as they needed to borrow weetheng's laptop.
ya so..
as usual got disturbed by them.
did some work..
but mostly were eating and chatting.
did until around 4 going 5,
yvonne needed to go..
so nurul went her way then weetheng and i sent her off to the bus stop till she boarded onto a bus.
then i went somewhere~~~
walaos.
kinda got "chased" by a seriously active dog.
walaos keep trying to bite me.
dots.
but still she's cute.
( the dog is a female thus it's a "her" )
<33 her!!!
think she's still "teeth-ing" that's y wan to chew on somethings.
arghhs.
guess i wont be going to that somewhere jus in case got disturbed by her agains LOL.
so went off at around 8 liddat.
was so ps.
late then my father came to fetch me.
after this,
went to central to hav dinner.
walkwalk awhile as there got pasamalam.
then headed back home.~
;DDDDDD

children are jus miracles

2008-05-18T22:07:00.008+08:00

todae felt so bad..
overslept becus of some "night activities" that happened in my house last night.
got so frustrated till i blasted my music player and slept.
until my mum came back..
note-ing me that she brought icecream back.
i was too tired to bother her.
so i continued to slp.
yea rite.
slp till oversleep!
worst of all.
i knew that there was a later service and i didn't want to go.
arghhs.
so i stayed at home.
reading a bk.
read read read till lunch time.
as usual weekends afternoon,
cooked instant noodles.
after lunch choing to church go help out in the children service.
i was taking care of a girl called chloe.
intially the first few time,
she was sticky wit her mum..
however after several times coming to church,
she auto will run in.
how comforting.
and now she start talking to me or aunty nancy.
instead of staying at a corner,
so quiet.
dots.
here are some of the pics i took while she was busy wit her stuff..

ok.. i am pretty jealous.. at such a young age she got a nike shoe.!

this is the earlier part while she was doing her art.

towards the end..

yay! completed her art. drinking her water wit a smile.

` anddd.. i had to help her wear her socks. srry to say this behind ur back Chloe, but it *stinks.
><"

anyways;
it was so lonely..
jeanette and kat were unable to come..
hais.
miss their pressence in the church.
T_T
oh wells.
after church,
went to lib to return my lib bk.
(oh pls. did not even hav the time to borrow a new bk..!)
next,
headed to ntuc..
but before that,
my mum treated me to a vanilla icecream cone as a conpensate for yesterday's.
hahahhahas.
licked my icecream like ages i have not hav eaten a icecream.
but i enjoyed it.
^^
bought some groceries and headed back home!
phews~
so tired!

re-adjustment

2008-05-17T11:40:00.006+08:00

hahahas~
my mood is muchh better now.
had some reflections.
anyways,
i changed my blogskin again!
back to simplicity
<333
gonna change some habits to further improve on myself.
next yr very impt.
streaming if not done well..
it's gonna be a serious gone case.
got to realli push myself.
ahhs. nvm~
shant talk abt all these for now as exams are jus over.
;DDDD
as usual,
i will post songs.
;xxxxx

恒星
飞轮海

一步一步像恒星转动
逆风也不放手
因为你在我胸口擦亮的梦
一天一天像恒星闪烁
心跳绝不放松
我相信未来会有未来的我
你的微笑像火柴
划过我心脏动脉
眼前突然间出现
梦的形状等着我探勘
我明白一切不会像
双手合十般简单
让我能确定
有什麽已经燃烧起来
从前抱着梦
在角落发呆的我
如果可以因为一个笑容而苏醒
那麽今後请尽管相信
有你我会是最亮的恒星
一步一步像恒星转动
逆风也不放手
因为你在我胸口擦亮的梦
一天一天像恒星闪烁
心跳绝不放松
我相信未来会有你骄傲的我存在.

" a journey of a thousand miles begins with one step. "

it's all over now

2008-05-16T14:18:00.007+08:00

yesterday and todae received my results.
all i could say is jus ...
utter disappointment.
i'm so disappointed wit myself;
needless to say my parents.
guess i jus got to learn my lesson and move on.~
EOY are on the way!
jiayouus everyone!
^^

彩虹眼泪
Sweety

他总是不了解

我那些嫁妆都无所谓

关于那些是是非非

爱的疲惫又有谁能陪

我总不够坚决

才会在爱里面绕圈圈

我学得会口是心非

不要流泪

喔

天上的眼泪

它好像懂我的心碎动了情

请给我一些安慰

我们应该要了解

伤了心忧愁爱多美

喔

天上的彩虹

总出现在天晴雨过

我已经懂得轻轻地放手

就算我觉得难过

你会在我身边守侯

陪我一起去看彩虹

你总是不自觉

让他去飞

流过泪水才能学会

天上的眼泪

他好像懂我的心碎

懂得轻轻给我一些安慰

我们应该要了解

伤了心有种爱的美

天上的彩虹

总出现在天晴雨过

我已经懂得轻轻的放手

就算我觉得难过

你会在我身边守候

陪我一起去看彩虹

擦干泪水擦干了成长的泪水

搭上地铁搭上了幸福的地铁

远方有个声音

那一定会是你

" What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us. "

free day today

2008-05-14T15:50:00.006+08:00

this is on the taiwanese drama, 翻滚吧蛋炒饭

wheewws!
jus reached home.
went out wit peixuan and joceyln todae.
RAINED !
suppose to meet @ 12 noon,
i went there late..
late for like 15mins..
i was feeling so badd.
><
met peixuan and joceyln @ amk mrt.
then went to j8 le..
reach le j8..
we were unable to decide wat we want to hav for lunch.
so walk walk see see read read.
so in the end..
decided to eat some pasta.
but in the end,
i ate baked rice.
peixuan had tomata soup, shared coke wit joceyln & shared pizza wit me.
after lunch,
went to do the art deco thing again.
i did donald duck since there were no other characters.

here it is!

alright i know it's ugly.
but i jus did for leisure.
^^
after this,
went walkwalk in j8 lo.
then peixuan went to look for her hairclip..
saw the moomoo shop in j8 then still not enuff say go back amkhub de moomoo.
lol.
so we went back to amkhub..
stopped at the moomoo shop.
peixuan took ages to pick a hairclip for herself.
simply cant decide.
finally she decided to buy one pink heart hairclip.
then bused home wit them lo.
tired wor..
yawns~

tmr getting back results le. ><
confirm cannot slp tonite. dots.

3 words left unspoken

2008-05-14T07:38:00.000+08:00

Love is not a matter of choice
I know, at that time you have made your decision
In your heart, there will always be that one belief
As for my belief, is to always support your belief
Because in my heart, there are three words that I couldn't tell you
If there was no promise between you and him
Would my love has the right
To be your luggage
Travel together by your side
No matter if it is the northpole or the rainforest

I am still guarding the promise that he and I made
At the end, happiness will write a piece of proof
Even if there were no days
Even if there would still be sorrows
I would still believe in life's miracle
Don't use my love to hold you down
Don't let your eyes shed a tear
So helpless, to go and search
For words that replace those three words
Maybe we both shouldn't see each other from now on
I will forever remember your smiling eyes
Don't be sad, don't you worry
I know what those three words mean

If there is one day when fate lets us meet once again
And your answer is still short of a response
Or maybe you don't know
That actually, I'm also waiting for the other miracle
When you smile as you find your belief
I will have these three words, transform them as your name
And place it in my heart forever...

[ anyone understood wat i posted? ]
i guess nobody did understand but nvm it's meant not to be understood.
`oh please, it's so early in the morning and i posted.

boredom taking over

2008-05-13T20:32:00.009+08:00

DYLAN IS SO SHUAII!
he is one of the actors in 命中注定我愛你.

ahhh! okies i shall post agains.
not long after my previous post,
i went to slp.
slp till around 6 then go bathe,
had dinner.
then i did...
BLOGSHOPPING!
it was suppose to be interesting..
but nth new..
such a disappointment.
it around 12days since i paused blogshopping.
however i saw a wallet i like.
arghhs. i need to control.
;xxxx
hmms here is one of the songs the lyrics of my current fav taiwanese drama,
命中注定我愛你.

元若蓝
九十九次我爱他

保加利亚玫瑰的精油
全滴在他刚才牵过我的手
横冲直撞我的心像一颗躲避球
谁懂爱停在手里多久
学问道理教课书都有
恋爱上上签到底哪里求
如果有教授我一定要努力修
丘比特呀快为我加油
多想带著雷达到他梦里
仔细调查
爱的正卡还有没有副卡
也想拿起扫把在他心里
洗洗刷刷
不专心的念头 yeah~ yeah~

都清除啦
九十九次我爱他
少了眼皮会乱眨
要他能心电感应我的想法
每天念著他的名字 yeah~ yeah~

一句不差
九十九次我爱他
少了头发会分岔
要他的想念每天准时打卡
爱像冰淇淋在嘴里溶化
学问道理教课书都有
恋爱上上签到底哪里求
如果有教授我一定要努力修
丘比特呀快为我加油
多想带著雷达到他梦里
仔细调查
爱的正卡还有没有副卡
也想拿起扫把在他心里
洗洗刷刷
不专心的念头 yeah~ yeah~

都清除啦
九十九次我爱他
少了眼皮会乱眨
要他能心电感应我的想法
每天念著他的名字 yeah~ yeah~

一句不差
九十九次我爱他
少了头发会分岔
要他的想念每天准时打卡
爱像冰淇淋在嘴里溶化
九十九次我爱他
少了眼皮会乱眨
要他能心电感应我的想法
每天念著他的名字 yeah~ yeah~

一句不差
九十九次我爱他
少了头发会分岔
要他的想念每天准时打卡
爱像冰淇淋在我嘴里溶化

till i blog! ^^

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!

2008-05-13T14:08:00.007+08:00

hello peeps!
it's finally the end of my exams!
tmr got class outing..
but so sad i cannot go.
mama dun allow.
X_X
* srry to my classmates for not being able to make it for the outing.
hehehes changed my blogskin again.
i so siao rite?
it's a taiwanese drama which ended abt 2 weeks ago.
it's called 恶作剧2吻.
acted by ariel lin as the lead actress.
^^
anyways,
todae had homecon & art paper.

homecon
the paper was easier then i expected..
but it's still difficult.
the tables i din manage to fill in all the blanks..
><
after homecon had abt 45mins rest.
so went down to canteen to hav food.
yvonne was bz helping weetheng wit the volcano drawing.
then a few of the girls including me,
crowd around yvonne see her artwork.
^^
stayed in the canteen till 10 10 liddat then go back class.

art
everything went surprisingly well.
but i suppose mine is not so like a "expressionism" art piece..
the sky was suppose to resemble like "the scream" art piece..
it was like abt 60% done well.
the rest is like "modern art"
worst of all..
i din bring my question paper..
deduct 1mrk for nth!!
arghhs.
during the art exam was a bit more relaxed cus mrkoh came in.
however when mrs lee came in..
no more le.
back to exam mood lol.
then ppl who used the hairdryer..
the atmosphere so quiet suddenly..
"whhhheeeww!"
the hairdryer sound come out so noisy lol.
plus somemore smelly one
like chao da
kekekkees.
;DDDDDDDDDDDDD

after school went to bbt shop.
monkey was there!
as usual,
did my honeydrew snowshake iceblend.
^^
i wonder when will i get back to my green milktea.
haisehs.
so relaxed~~
midyr is over.
but then..
D&T project coming up..
no more homecon liaos.
the rest is D&T le.
gonna miss mdm faizah!
T____________T
anyways..
i am so indulged in the taiwanese drama!!!!!!!
命中注定我愛你 & 翻滚吧蛋炒饭!!
lovelovelove<3 them all!!
ok shoos!
i am high le
okies i go sleep sleep le.
tats~!

when everything is over,
u sense a relief.
but before u know it,
another milestone in ur life has arrived for u to overcome and make it into a stepping stone.

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!

2008-05-12T12:39:00.007+08:00

happy late mothers day!
^^
love my mama~!~!~!
okies'
srry i am so high!
jus finished watching 命中注定我愛你 ep9
acted by qiao en as the lead actress and ruan qin tian as the lead actor
omg la so sweet.
i prefer dylan tho ;x
dylan so much shuaii then that stuupid chun xi
hmphs.
everytime bully xinyi one.
ownself got feeling for her still act so big.
so over protective for her.
diaos.
then ..
anna suddenly come back
got nth else to do le then come back to bf side.
but also cannot blame anna la.
she was framed...
hais,
everything is jus fated ;x
then now i also watching 翻滚吧蛋炒饭 ep2.
acted by jiro frm feilunhai wit genie also.
so shuaii la.
but abit over reactive..
waaaaaa
so many shows coming up..
pocket gonna hav big big hole le
gonna be so indulged in it then buy DVD. diaos!
ok shoos! i better save money for something else.
kekekkekes.
ARGHHS. so indulge in shows.
@_@
okies.
midyr was ok la.
tmr got art and homecons.
my art still not prepared yet leh
dunno wat to paint.
hais.
todae my science also gone case la
like almost every sub also gone case.
T_________T
haiseh.
gonna do so badly liaos.
dead fish.
bleahs.
X_X
okies off i go to plan my art byebyes! ^^

<33 my mama!!

you will always be in my heart. and no one will replace u.
because of u i know myself more thanks for everything u have even to me even the brokeness becus of that i hav learnt how to pick them up.

bbyes people!

2008-05-01T18:35:00.007+08:00

i will be MIA as exams are tmr.

will be back on 130508 (:

all the best in all ur upcoming exams!

random (:

2008-04-29T18:02:00.009+08:00

蒲公英的約定
Jay chou

小学篱笆旁的蒲公英
十几英里有味道的风景
雾水草场传来她的声音
多少年后也开始很好听

将愿望折纸飞机寄出信
因为我们等不到那流星
等枕头坠离命运的引力
却不知道到底能去哪里

已经长大的约定那样清晰
打过构的我相信
说好要一起旅行
是你如今唯一坚持的任性

在走廊想霸占她手心
我们却注意窗边的情敌
我去到哪里你都跟很紧
哼歌而梦在等待着惊喜

已经长大的约定那样清晰
拿过到的我相信
说好要一起旅行
是你如今唯一坚持的任性

已经长大的约定那样珍惜
与你聊不完的曾经
而我已经分不清你是友情
还是错过的爱情

another song in the movie 不能说的秘密.
seriously touched by the movie.
nth muchh happened in school todae..
after school ,
went to 2NA for UNSW competition.
the questions are more on GK.
and its like i gonna fail for my GP.
hais.
i nvr knew i was so weak..~
after this..
went up to class and near teacher's office to kinda slack.
did some science then headed to bbt.
so xianhua aunty there so happy.
so lucky not the morning aunty lo.
hmphs~
then on the way home..
saw the pasamalam open le.
so peixuan yvonne and i decided to get down the bus and go see see.
wa!
so sudden.
peixuan mum suddenly 'pop-ed' out.
at first dunno who was the lady talking to peixuan.
in the end..
i found out..
it was her mama.
then peixuan chit-chatted wit her mama.
i was like so rude.
din say 'hi' to her..
><
lata she get bad impression on me..
alamakkks~~!
in the end,
played some ping pong ball games..
bought cheese hotdog and yvonne bought takoyaki.
peixuan was feeling so warm and hungry that she got no mood to eat.
then bused home
;DDDD

srry if i made you feel anything.
i was jus trying to give myself time and to prove something.
but it jus seems so wrong.
if only i can jus know things better.
i'll be still, to hear what is best for me. ♥

inspirations

2008-04-27T22:16:00.005+08:00

i jus realised that inspirations are everywhere.
it's jus up to u on how u see an object or an event.
upon thinking of inspirations for my art mid yr..
i had inspirations frm drama series and movies..
but there's something i am unclear of ..
gonna ask miss tan.
hopefully it would be a yes frm her that it's ok.
;P
this morning instead of revising schoolwork for mid yr,
i went to watch 不能说的秘密 directed by jay chou since last yr .
din manage to get time off to watch that show..
so now so desperate to get inspiration i watched it.
walaos
got so touched by it la.
so sad.
T_________T
u guys shld go and watch it.
but of cus dun be like me la.
watch it after the mid yr.
i am a baddie.
din revise my work lol.
yawns~
posting at suchh a late time.
cus i havent do my english summary muahhahahas!
ok.
these days the post gonna be irregular and shorter le.
gotta concentrate on my studies since speech day is over.
;DDDDDDDDDDD
off i go!

`something to rejoice abt..
tmr no science mock exam!! ^^

thanks for the memories you have given me.
thanks for all the broken wounds u have made in me.
although it will take time to heal.
thanks for all,
cus through all these all,
i start to learn.
and i have became a stronger person.
i'll definately miss you.
it's jus too late for everything.
i'll learn i promise ♥